basically
i'm fucking bumming BIG time.
i'm just so sick of everything going on in my life.
i seriously can't handle anything anymore.
everyday is such a struggle to get through without you helping me.
i don't understand what's going on.
you said we could be friends but whenever i try to make the effort, you ignore it.
you were PISSED that i went on friday when all i was doing was trying to be a supportive friend, even if you WON'T talk to me.
it's sad that even your brother aknowledged me and hugged me but you couldn't even say hello to me.
what did i do that was so terrible?
what happened to us?
what happened to you?
i just don't get it.
why the fuck can't you give me closure?
why do you have to be so fucking selfish?
you always said i was the selfish one but who's the selfish on now?
i try and i try and i try to give myself closure.
i've tried so many different things and i always think they're gonna work and in the end, they totally don't.
i just miss you more.
i can't take this anymore.
i was driving yesterday and this song came up on my ipod and it fucking hit me so hard.
it describes my life.
I see your face in the frame on my desk
It meant a lot, now it means a lot less
It's just a place for the dust in my room to rest
I see the letters that were written for me
They said you cared and I totally believed.
They didnt mention that 5 months later you'd leave
You could've told me anything
You could've told me anything
You could've told me anything
To make me understand
Cuz I dont understand
I see the bracelet you gave me back then
Made it for me so I'd never forget
It must of worked cuz I havent forgotten you yet
I see the bed where we used to mess around
we'd talk for hours before you'd go down
That was before you decided not to keep me around
You could've told me anything
You could've told me anything
You could've told me anything
To make me understand
You could've told me anything
You could've told me anything
You could've told me anything
To make me understand
Cuz I dont understand
You could've told me why you had to go
I tried to tell myself just let it go
I see your face
It's everywhere I go
You could've told me anything
You could've told me anything
You could've told me anything
To make me understand
You could've told me anything
You could've told me anything
You could've told me anything
To make me understand
Cuz I dont understand
Cuz I dont understand
No I dont understand
and seriously FUCK mothers day.
i can't handle this.
i'm not over the first, how can i get over the second?
where the fuck are you?
you promised to help me through this, even if it was just as a friend.
you still fucking promised and i could use you so fucking bad right now.
FUCK.
i don't want to go to work.
i should go get ready.
fuck today.
i just want to go back to bed.
seriously.
i'm just so sick of everything going on in my life.
i seriously can't handle anything anymore.
everyday is such a struggle to get through without you helping me.
i don't understand what's going on.
you said we could be friends but whenever i try to make the effort, you ignore it.
you were PISSED that i went on friday when all i was doing was trying to be a supportive friend, even if you WON'T talk to me.
it's sad that even your brother aknowledged me and hugged me but you couldn't even say hello to me.
what did i do that was so terrible?
what happened to us?
what happened to you?
i just don't get it.
why the fuck can't you give me closure?
why do you have to be so fucking selfish?
you always said i was the selfish one but who's the selfish on now?
i try and i try and i try to give myself closure.
i've tried so many different things and i always think they're gonna work and in the end, they totally don't.
i just miss you more.
i can't take this anymore.
i was driving yesterday and this song came up on my ipod and it fucking hit me so hard.
it describes my life.
I see your face in the frame on my desk
It meant a lot, now it means a lot less
It's just a place for the dust in my room to rest
I see the letters that were written for me
They said you cared and I totally believed.
They didnt mention that 5 months later you'd leave
You could've told me anything
You could've told me anything
You could've told me anything
To make me understand
Cuz I dont understand
I see the bracelet you gave me back then
Made it for me so I'd never forget
It must of worked cuz I havent forgotten you yet
I see the bed where we used to mess around
we'd talk for hours before you'd go down
That was before you decided not to keep me around
You could've told me anything
You could've told me anything
You could've told me anything
To make me understand
You could've told me anything
You could've told me anything
You could've told me anything
To make me understand
Cuz I dont understand
You could've told me why you had to go
I tried to tell myself just let it go
I see your face
It's everywhere I go
You could've told me anything
You could've told me anything
You could've told me anything
To make me understand
You could've told me anything
You could've told me anything
You could've told me anything
To make me understand
Cuz I dont understand
Cuz I dont understand
No I dont understand
and seriously FUCK mothers day.
i can't handle this.
i'm not over the first, how can i get over the second?
where the fuck are you?
you promised to help me through this, even if it was just as a friend.
you still fucking promised and i could use you so fucking bad right now.
FUCK.
i don't want to go to work.
i should go get ready.
fuck today.
i just want to go back to bed.
seriously.