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things around here are slightly crazy. i'm at the library right now. waiting for erin to get out of class so we can go grab lunch at ze dining hall.
anna enrolled herself in some sort of substance abuse/prevention program to get her drinking under control. its been stressing me out a lot. i guess seeing my twin sister headed down a road that isn't healthy mentally or physically is very stressful for me. i worry about her constantly and find myself breaking down in tears in the strangest places/times because of my constant worrying. i think i've finally become immensely happy in a good place. and i just want to same for anna. its hard watching your twin or sibling for that matter head down a road that you know isn't good for them. you can only fake it to yourself how happy you truly are for a certain amount of time, before you wake up and realize you've been lying to yourself and those around you for far too long. hopefully it all works out.
next weekend is valentines day. i hate this holiday. i've always had a boyfriend but even if i didn't or did i'd still fucking hate it. its tacky and cheap and exploit's "love" in all the wrong ways. i dont want a giant candy heart from my boyfriend to tell me he loves me. i'd rather get sex, a bottle of red wine and watch a movie (in no particular order)
facebook is being gay. all i want to do is delete about 3/4th of my pictures off the internet. blegh.
anna enrolled herself in some sort of substance abuse/prevention program to get her drinking under control. its been stressing me out a lot. i guess seeing my twin sister headed down a road that isn't healthy mentally or physically is very stressful for me. i worry about her constantly and find myself breaking down in tears in the strangest places/times because of my constant worrying. i think i've finally become immensely happy in a good place. and i just want to same for anna. its hard watching your twin or sibling for that matter head down a road that you know isn't good for them. you can only fake it to yourself how happy you truly are for a certain amount of time, before you wake up and realize you've been lying to yourself and those around you for far too long. hopefully it all works out.
next weekend is valentines day. i hate this holiday. i've always had a boyfriend but even if i didn't or did i'd still fucking hate it. its tacky and cheap and exploit's "love" in all the wrong ways. i dont want a giant candy heart from my boyfriend to tell me he loves me. i'd rather get sex, a bottle of red wine and watch a movie (in no particular order)
facebook is being gay. all i want to do is delete about 3/4th of my pictures off the internet. blegh.