after-thoughts
I think this is the first Christmas season when Christmas itself has depressed me. I mean what is Christmas? Celebrating the bith of Jesus, maybe. Then there is this made up holiday which is on Christmas where everyone gets tons of presents and more and yes, everyone is greedy in some way. I can't say this isn't true for myself because this is what I realized which made me upset. I think it really hit me when my mom drained her bank account to do the whole "Christmas" (but not really Christmas) thing, which she hated doing but she really had no choice; what are you supposed to do when someone hands you this gift and you have nothing in return. I'm actually glad that my mom doesn't give us much for Christmas besides maybe a book or two or a cd and I really appreciate what she gives. My dad's family on the other hand really over does it! My new step realatives that I have never even met before send gifts and money! And i don't know who they are or what they even look like. I actually feel kind of bad because they have no reason to give to me. There's nothing wrong with giving I think it just gets blown way out of poportion. I was happy that my mom took us to church twice on Christmas eve and I would of like to go on Christmas as well. That is where we belong on Christmas.
Nothing else much new besides me and my mom have been sick all of vacaction. I really wished I hadn't skipped so much school before we got out because I am really dreading all the tests and work I have to make up and all the homework I didn't do. (I saw Matt Y. in the mall and he reminded me that I'm supposed to have 3 books read and I haven't even started damnit) I am a little overwhelmed with animals in my room. If anyone wants these mice when they are old enough, again, let me know. They are constantly croaking and squeeking and they are adorable. They have little black fuzzy coats now. I think mommy is pregnant again though she is fat. I don't know what I am going to do with all these animals! My brother got a leopard gecko its pretty cool. I really want to get one but I keep reminding myself I have too many animals and Salome the snake is a much better reptile pet because you can handle her as much as you want and she doesn't skirm out of your hands and drop 4 feet to the floor like Thorne, the lizard does. Nah, I think Thorne will chill out eventually if my brother doesn't kill her first like the Utz the hamster.
Well, bring on New Years!
Nothing else much new besides me and my mom have been sick all of vacaction. I really wished I hadn't skipped so much school before we got out because I am really dreading all the tests and work I have to make up and all the homework I didn't do. (I saw Matt Y. in the mall and he reminded me that I'm supposed to have 3 books read and I haven't even started damnit) I am a little overwhelmed with animals in my room. If anyone wants these mice when they are old enough, again, let me know. They are constantly croaking and squeeking and they are adorable. They have little black fuzzy coats now. I think mommy is pregnant again though she is fat. I don't know what I am going to do with all these animals! My brother got a leopard gecko its pretty cool. I really want to get one but I keep reminding myself I have too many animals and Salome the snake is a much better reptile pet because you can handle her as much as you want and she doesn't skirm out of your hands and drop 4 feet to the floor like Thorne, the lizard does. Nah, I think Thorne will chill out eventually if my brother doesn't kill her first like the Utz the hamster.
Well, bring on New Years!