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Wow...I'm definetley in essence of school lately. We had to go to walmart today to get stuff and I found out that stuff is really cheap there! Binders .58 Notebooks .25 Pens .48 I went to work and Gracey showed up in her new cute car. I think maybe Tina might buy a horse from her. That will be nice..a new horse for me to ride. Actually it's too bad because I have to stop working on Wednesdays because my guitar lessons will be then. Wednesdays are really the only day I get any time to ride because I'm the only one there. HOPEFULLY I should get my licence next shot so I can drive myself there and reschedule my lesson time. Speaking of lessons, Nathan has offered to lend me one of his 2 classical guitars until my mom can come up with the money to buy me one. He was nice enough to get a price of 900 dollars down to 600 for me at the shop he works at, but now he is being even more generous with me. I mean I'm sure he has plenty of other students but only 2 guitars, so it really makes me feel flattered. It's like Tina wanting me to work/rider her horse ( gorgeous American Saddlebred shipped from Kentucky). Well maybe not exactly like that but similar. I mean one of my goals is to get really good on the classical guitar, and at some point in my life it would be really nice if I was able to buy an expensive horse of my own, and show again. I will always have much admiration for Tina with all the things she has done with her life, including living and apprentcing in famous Kentucky barns, showing some of the greatest saddlebreds on the national circuit, and owning a barn of her own. No one but a barn employee myself would be able to understand what a responsiblity this is. I mean at times we have had 20 to 30 horses there, which doesn't seem much but it really is. And everyone would think that the more horses there the more money she makes when it really makes it harder because she has to order more shavings, grain, hay, etc. and hire more help. Don't get me wrong because I love my job. I love Tina as I would love my mom and best friend, and I love her children, Abby and Andrew like I would my own siblings. I love every horse in that barn. I think of that barn as I think of coming home. It's more than a job to me, its a responsiblity and big part of my life. I have spent probably a huge precentage of my life in that one place, as I have my home. Why would I treat it as just any job or way to make money? I always think how my life would be minus certain things. What would my life be like if my brother or sister never existed? What if my parents were still married? What if my grandmother hadn't died? What if I had never met Joey? I couldn't imagine my life if I had never wanted to take riding lessons one morning coming home from ballet when I was 4 years old. I don't think people or even myself realize how much every day, every event affect us and our lives.
`Who are YOU?' said the Caterpillar.
This was not an encouraging opening for a conversation. Alice replied, rather shyly, `I--I hardly know, sir, just at present-- at least I know who I WAS when I got up this morning, but I think I must have been changed several times since then.'
What I say is don't take anything in life for granted, a lot of good things are thrown at us that we don't even realize. The way I think of doing this best is by having a center, an eye of a storm as Gracey once said. In a raging storm, there is always the eye which remains dead calm. The eye is where our true self stays. It is where we really know who we are, what is important, and what we should do to make good decisions. I know this sounds stupid, but if there is any advice I could give, it is to stay in touch with your eye, your center, and don't forget that it's there. What would we be without what holds us together? What would we be with no reasons for our emotions or feelings? Another thing I always wonder is why different people feel the reasons they do. Why do certain things anger some people, and yet delight others. I mean yes, we all are born in different households, cultures, environments, etc. but what ever happened to instinct? I mean, most animals react to things in the same or similar ways because of instinct. People are just a lot more complex I guess.
`But I don't want to go among mad people,' Alice remarked.
`Oh, you can't help that,' said the Cat: `we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad.'
`How do you know I'm mad?' said Alice.
`You must be,' said the Cat, `or you wouldn't have come here.'
Alice didn't think that proved it at all; however, she went on` And how do you know that you're mad?'
`To begin with,' said the Cat, `a dog's not mad. You grant that?'
`I suppose so,' said Alice.
`Well, then,' the Cat went on, `you see, a dog growls when it's angry, and wags its tail when it's pleased. Now I growl when I'm pleased, and wag my tail when I'm angry. Therefore I'm mad.'
Ahhh the adventures of Alice where would we be without those? ...Anyways I better go do something else, I know I'm not making much sense right now.
`Who are YOU?' said the Caterpillar.
This was not an encouraging opening for a conversation. Alice replied, rather shyly, `I--I hardly know, sir, just at present-- at least I know who I WAS when I got up this morning, but I think I must have been changed several times since then.'
What I say is don't take anything in life for granted, a lot of good things are thrown at us that we don't even realize. The way I think of doing this best is by having a center, an eye of a storm as Gracey once said. In a raging storm, there is always the eye which remains dead calm. The eye is where our true self stays. It is where we really know who we are, what is important, and what we should do to make good decisions. I know this sounds stupid, but if there is any advice I could give, it is to stay in touch with your eye, your center, and don't forget that it's there. What would we be without what holds us together? What would we be with no reasons for our emotions or feelings? Another thing I always wonder is why different people feel the reasons they do. Why do certain things anger some people, and yet delight others. I mean yes, we all are born in different households, cultures, environments, etc. but what ever happened to instinct? I mean, most animals react to things in the same or similar ways because of instinct. People are just a lot more complex I guess.
`But I don't want to go among mad people,' Alice remarked.
`Oh, you can't help that,' said the Cat: `we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad.'
`How do you know I'm mad?' said Alice.
`You must be,' said the Cat, `or you wouldn't have come here.'
Alice didn't think that proved it at all; however, she went on` And how do you know that you're mad?'
`To begin with,' said the Cat, `a dog's not mad. You grant that?'
`I suppose so,' said Alice.
`Well, then,' the Cat went on, `you see, a dog growls when it's angry, and wags its tail when it's pleased. Now I growl when I'm pleased, and wag my tail when I'm angry. Therefore I'm mad.'
Ahhh the adventures of Alice where would we be without those? ...Anyways I better go do something else, I know I'm not making much sense right now.