loose ends
I feel like I only write in this when I'm having doubtful thoughts about life.
Reflection time.
This year, like so many before it, feels like it could be the worst yet best. It has been a year of a lot of tough things.
Brad dying still gets me so I don't think about it. I know when I'm at Anytown however, somehow I will fit it in to actually dealing with his death. Not that there is any program at camp to deal with death, but it's such a hard thing for me to think about and I always think about things I avoid when I'm at anytown. I miss him, my family misses him, I think before it happened he missed his real self too.
That was a life changing event...to say the least.
My parents suing each other. What the fuck is new. I mean take their average age of 58 and subtract 52 years from that. You will then get how old they act. I can't hate them. It's just dragged on too long for me to worry about their situation.
My grades, school, and life in tuscaloosa is like a roller coaster. Its my own responsibility so i'm not going to complain. I just want to one day graduate and move out of this place.
I turned 21. all that means is less money more things to forget.
I realized that I love Mer, Katie, Holly more than I knew. I don't want Holly to leave. She's my partner in crime, my roomie, and an original member of the bitches. There isn't much else you could want in a friend. Mer, she's my biffle. The only one I can be completely annoyed by and vice versa and I still wake up and know she completely has my back. Katie, as we sit on our LAST ALL NIGHTER, I realize how much I appreciate how she is always understanding, ready to hang, and always has a great story to tell. She's the girl I go to when drama is about.
I realized today, after my car died, i was short of money to pay bills, my phone died, and I was in an emotional state that caused me to call my sister that even though things suck...it could be so much worse. Really, i can't complain.
Tyler's dad died. Pray for him. I can't and don't want to even imagine. Things could be so much worse.
love you
Emily
Reflection time.
This year, like so many before it, feels like it could be the worst yet best. It has been a year of a lot of tough things.
Brad dying still gets me so I don't think about it. I know when I'm at Anytown however, somehow I will fit it in to actually dealing with his death. Not that there is any program at camp to deal with death, but it's such a hard thing for me to think about and I always think about things I avoid when I'm at anytown. I miss him, my family misses him, I think before it happened he missed his real self too.
That was a life changing event...to say the least.
My parents suing each other. What the fuck is new. I mean take their average age of 58 and subtract 52 years from that. You will then get how old they act. I can't hate them. It's just dragged on too long for me to worry about their situation.
My grades, school, and life in tuscaloosa is like a roller coaster. Its my own responsibility so i'm not going to complain. I just want to one day graduate and move out of this place.
I turned 21. all that means is less money more things to forget.
I realized that I love Mer, Katie, Holly more than I knew. I don't want Holly to leave. She's my partner in crime, my roomie, and an original member of the bitches. There isn't much else you could want in a friend. Mer, she's my biffle. The only one I can be completely annoyed by and vice versa and I still wake up and know she completely has my back. Katie, as we sit on our LAST ALL NIGHTER, I realize how much I appreciate how she is always understanding, ready to hang, and always has a great story to tell. She's the girl I go to when drama is about.
I realized today, after my car died, i was short of money to pay bills, my phone died, and I was in an emotional state that caused me to call my sister that even though things suck...it could be so much worse. Really, i can't complain.
Tyler's dad died. Pray for him. I can't and don't want to even imagine. Things could be so much worse.
love you
Emily