check in
It's been approximately 800 years since my last post in this LJ. I'm not even sure when it was. Sometime during my unemployment? I'm not sure. I was going to "regular blog" today but this seems just a little too self-indulgent to post to the world-- especially with my hundreds of public declarations of health and nutrition. I'll keep it quieter for now, and post publically when I've been a bit more successful, I think.
I started a new exercise regimine this mroning. It's the Ballet Beautiful method, which is a little less "Barre" and a little more Pilates-Starring-A-Ballet-Star. But the instructor is a professional ballerina of 10000 years and trained Natalie Portman for Black Swan as well as Maggie Gyllenhaal for her health, so I feel pretty good about it. It's not as difficult as I was expecting, maybe, but certainly challenging and humbling. I am not so strong, it turns out. So I'm looking forward to the challenge and hope that I see the kind of results I've read about online.
i also want to supplement it with some 30 Day Shred, but only some because I still hate Jillian Michaels and the shred makes me want to die inside. A little extra weight training can't hurt, especially. And cardio. There isn't much cardio involved with Ballet Beautiful (which is fine by meeeeee!) I intend to forgo the scale and rely on weekly measurements. I learned this summer that the scale means nothing to me, especially with my wonky thyroid and enormous ribcage. I am never going to be 120 lbs. But I can have a 27" waist. So we'll begin there as a goal.
I'm playing Nancy in Oliver! up at West Valley. It is so interesting to compare myself to this time last year when I felt so desperate to impress and move forward in my career. This is only the third show I've done this year, and I'm not really closer to an agent than I was last year, but I feel so good and solid about my career choice and the things I've learned in the last twelve months. I am finally able to give myself real, quiet, confident credit to myself where it is due without so much comparison to others. There are a lot of really talented people around here and out there in the world, but I am really starting to understand and accept what it is I bring to the party, and I never need to defend or apologize for it.
Good work, self.
I started a new exercise regimine this mroning. It's the Ballet Beautiful method, which is a little less "Barre" and a little more Pilates-Starring-A-Ballet-Star. But the instructor is a professional ballerina of 10000 years and trained Natalie Portman for Black Swan as well as Maggie Gyllenhaal for her health, so I feel pretty good about it. It's not as difficult as I was expecting, maybe, but certainly challenging and humbling. I am not so strong, it turns out. So I'm looking forward to the challenge and hope that I see the kind of results I've read about online.
i also want to supplement it with some 30 Day Shred, but only some because I still hate Jillian Michaels and the shred makes me want to die inside. A little extra weight training can't hurt, especially. And cardio. There isn't much cardio involved with Ballet Beautiful (which is fine by meeeeee!) I intend to forgo the scale and rely on weekly measurements. I learned this summer that the scale means nothing to me, especially with my wonky thyroid and enormous ribcage. I am never going to be 120 lbs. But I can have a 27" waist. So we'll begin there as a goal.
I'm playing Nancy in Oliver! up at West Valley. It is so interesting to compare myself to this time last year when I felt so desperate to impress and move forward in my career. This is only the third show I've done this year, and I'm not really closer to an agent than I was last year, but I feel so good and solid about my career choice and the things I've learned in the last twelve months. I am finally able to give myself real, quiet, confident credit to myself where it is due without so much comparison to others. There are a lot of really talented people around here and out there in the world, but I am really starting to understand and accept what it is I bring to the party, and I never need to defend or apologize for it.
Good work, self.