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I haven't posted here in a really long time. I feel like I only turn to LJ when I need to just freak out or say things that I can't publicly. Maybe that's a cop out. Maybe it's self preservation.
I have callbacks for Drowsy Chaperone tonight. I'm starting to freak out. I've been real cool this weekend about it, focusing primarily on the mortifying experience I had at auditions (singing the same cutting of the same song as another girl in my same audition group for the same role-- and the girl singing it happens to be one of the leads in Wedding Singer right now AND didn't have congestion fighting against her), but all of a sudden I'm freaking out. I haven't actually wanted to be cast in a show like this since Little Women. Does it jinx myself to admit that? I really want to be Kitty, but I'm jonesing even for the ensemble on this one. I know Dave likes me and I know I'm funny and I know I could do it-- but that doesn't mean anything in comparison to the other people (like Wedding Singer leadypants) who have already played leads for them.
THERE ARE GOING TO BE 3654687861654 GIRLS THERE TONIGHT. HARDLY AN EXAGGERATION!!!!!
Stop this, self. I'm skinny, and pretty, and I have cool hair, and bright "stage eyes," and I can do this. And Dave likes me. He cast me in a secondary lead last fall without my even being at callbacks. Or a UVU student even.
This is fine.
This is fine this is fine this is fine this is FINE.
I have callbacks for Drowsy Chaperone tonight. I'm starting to freak out. I've been real cool this weekend about it, focusing primarily on the mortifying experience I had at auditions (singing the same cutting of the same song as another girl in my same audition group for the same role-- and the girl singing it happens to be one of the leads in Wedding Singer right now AND didn't have congestion fighting against her), but all of a sudden I'm freaking out. I haven't actually wanted to be cast in a show like this since Little Women. Does it jinx myself to admit that? I really want to be Kitty, but I'm jonesing even for the ensemble on this one. I know Dave likes me and I know I'm funny and I know I could do it-- but that doesn't mean anything in comparison to the other people (like Wedding Singer leadypants) who have already played leads for them.
THERE ARE GOING TO BE 3654687861654 GIRLS THERE TONIGHT. HARDLY AN EXAGGERATION!!!!!
Stop this, self. I'm skinny, and pretty, and I have cool hair, and bright "stage eyes," and I can do this. And Dave likes me. He cast me in a secondary lead last fall without my even being at callbacks. Or a UVU student even.
This is fine.
This is fine this is fine this is fine this is FINE.