leave it all up to you

[emlalaita]

why do i want what i cant have?
or when i do have it its only on the others terms
bullshit
i dont know how long it will take to learn my lesson

went out tonight to a bar with some friends
actually ended up seein one i havent seen since 5th grade
pretty crazy

i also saw some things that depressed me
angered me and made me jealous

i think ive learned my lesson

im sober now but
apparently i was drunk texting
a co worker no less
i will be hearing about this soon
i did go over my outbox
boy were they some pretty messed up texts
i cant even figure out what i was tryin to say!
oh well