We are Thirsty for More of You
This weekend was Mini-World Changers.
I want to write out everything that God revealed to me, but I don't know how to do it in a livejournal post.
I'm kind of scared about the heart God's giving me for missions.
It doesn't match up with "my" life plans.
But then again, all the good things God has given me-
were because of his will, not mine.
For me, it's such a struggle to fully rely on God.
It's so hard to live my life the way he wants me to.
No matter how hard I try, I'm never going to live a completely godly life,
a holy and blameless one.
I'm never gonna be the perfect witness.
I keep thinking... God... do you really want to use me?
Sometimes I feel like an ant trying to take on an army of humans. But then I think about it... we're not alone in this race. Hey, if God wanted to, he could wipe out the entire human race with the flick of a finger. So I have to ask myself: Am I going to put my trust in humans or in the creator of the universe?
Sounds like a no-brainer.
It's so easy to say, to think about.
But living it out is 39820498 times harder.
I want this to be the generation... the one that is selfless.
One that is more focused on God, not our clothes. [ouch that got me]
I want to live above the standards.
I know that God is the only thing that will give me complete joy.
Joy.
That's another thing I was thinking about.
Today, society plagues us with make yourself happy, you deserve it!
They tell us everyday that the purpose of living is to do what makes you feel good, or the purpose of life is to be successful. Even some [i.e. Oprah... as much as I loooveee the show.] act like doing "good deeds" and "leaving the world a better place" is the sole purpose of life. Those things are great. It's not bad to be happy, to be successful, or to serve other people. Not at all. But those things can't give you joy. Maybe temporary happiness, but that eventually will go away. And then you'll have to go buy another week's worth of happiness with a new pair of shoes.
So many people out there are searching for something to fill the gap.
Nickelback
Sugarland
Black Eyed Peas
The whole Britney Spears going to rehab, shaving her head, etc.
The Anna Nicole Smith story
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So I don't know if this made any sense at all.
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I hope it did.
I loveee youuuu.
One other thing...
this is beautiful.