Friendships
I just got through reading through some of the friends journals. ºbig smileº I must admit that was most timely. Lots has been on my mind lately. The past week was like a roller coster of emotions. The excitement of getting the interview to the realization that that is one job that i will most likely not get. They wanted to extend the interview process ie they havent found who they are looking for yet. I had such high hopes. Im just not used to rejection. Ive pretty much gotten what I wanted the first time I asked. My first choice of College, my first choice for big sister once i got there, my husband...now the job situation is a wake up call in my life. That and sometimes I feel like such a child in an adult world. The weekend was wonderful but I still felt odd. Also the fact that i am the youngest one up here and not having a job yet...like they all have to take care of me or something.
reading the journals was most timely because of this rollercoster. I have felt like no matter what I did I simply could not win. It was like im in a loosing battle. I know I have my support here. Those close to me who are helping me fight. However, I talked to Mrs. Ginger and she reminded me of the story where the Israelite army was fighting and Moses had to hold his arms up in order for the battle to go his way. but he became weak and needed help of his two friends to lift his hands. My prayers lately have been for two "angels" to do that for me. at least for a moment. well, thank you to those two souls who happen to be 5 and 7 hours away from me! Angie and Anna. Those have been a "lift" for me today.
Angie called me a "rock". Thank you angie for being the "foliage" that kept me from "eroding" because there were certain times when it could have easily happened. I felt like I was slipping away. Those interesting late night stories were what helped keep me from loosing it. You reminded me of the humor in the universe. and reading you and anna's conversations...LOL ^what an interesting metaphore...LOL^
Anna, sister, or hippie sister, lol...that is a good description. a reminder to keep it positive. If there was a positive to you crisis it kept me from having my own. To do everyting in my power for you. I must admit those years you were at JC there wasnt a dull moment, from the crisis to blaring "All You Need is Love" out the window over the hockey field and annoying Sabrina and celebrating the similarities, To our political and philosophical conversations where i have learned things. i guess thats the up side to having differences.
I love you both. Thanks again for the timely posts! I might just have to respond to them individually...
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reading the journals was most timely because of this rollercoster. I have felt like no matter what I did I simply could not win. It was like im in a loosing battle. I know I have my support here. Those close to me who are helping me fight. However, I talked to Mrs. Ginger and she reminded me of the story where the Israelite army was fighting and Moses had to hold his arms up in order for the battle to go his way. but he became weak and needed help of his two friends to lift his hands. My prayers lately have been for two "angels" to do that for me. at least for a moment. well, thank you to those two souls who happen to be 5 and 7 hours away from me! Angie and Anna. Those have been a "lift" for me today.
Angie called me a "rock". Thank you angie for being the "foliage" that kept me from "eroding" because there were certain times when it could have easily happened. I felt like I was slipping away. Those interesting late night stories were what helped keep me from loosing it. You reminded me of the humor in the universe. and reading you and anna's conversations...LOL ^what an interesting metaphore...LOL^
Anna, sister, or hippie sister, lol...that is a good description. a reminder to keep it positive. If there was a positive to you crisis it kept me from having my own. To do everyting in my power for you. I must admit those years you were at JC there wasnt a dull moment, from the crisis to blaring "All You Need is Love" out the window over the hockey field and annoying Sabrina and celebrating the similarities, To our political and philosophical conversations where i have learned things. i guess thats the up side to having differences.
I love you both. Thanks again for the timely posts! I might just have to respond to them individually...
More Later...