it's been a while!
i was reading in someone else's lj a quote from c.s. lewis. "if i find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world."
I really liked that quote and was thinking about it and then it left my brain until i picked up a book i'm reading called the unquenchable worshipper by matt redman. the chapter i picked up on was called the unsatisfiable worshipper. it was kinda ironic how it flowed with what i'd seen earlier, plus that particular quote is what finished out this particular chapter. buuut, the quote from the chapter that caught my eye though was this one.
"i remain an unsatisfied worshipper, limping toward wholeness yet full of hope and gratitude."
to me that hit on everything. #1 being frustrated with life and situations and sometimes looking soo forward to moving on to what i know IS better #2 knowing what it feels like to be a gimp in life--my spiritual life, trying very hard but not quite making it (limping is a great illustration) #3 knowing God will get me where he needs and wants me and #4 most importantly being thankful God is in control, he is an AMAZING God and it's not all about me.
that quote was a great reminder of perserverance in the midst of not understanding or even feeling content where i'm at, which i know all of us have hit that point if we aren't there currently. God used it to remind me that my state of mind does not dictate my attitude or actions. sometimes we use our unsatifiableness (great word) as a crutch or even let ourselves be consumed with seeking satisfaction rather than taking care of God's business. the problem is in seeking satisfaction or when it's a crutch we tend to make ourselves the focus of most things in our spiritual life, our acts of worship, and our sacrifices. i wonder if Jesus was satisfied here on earth, i seriously doubt it, but that never changed his calling, him fulfilling that and his attitude about it. i guess the boat people miss is that being unsatisfied as far as knowing there is more, desiring what we don't understand and never knowing enough/being close enough to God is not necessarily a bad thing but, being unsatisfied and letting it stand in the way of God's instructions or focusing only on seeking satisfaction is not a good thing.
i think i'm rambling now...what i do encourage you to do, as i am, is evaluate yourself. not in order to make yourself feel terrible about yourself, remember the "limping toward wholeness" part we are allll there, BUT in order to know where God needs to take over and you need to relinquish control. i hope this made sense.
I really liked that quote and was thinking about it and then it left my brain until i picked up a book i'm reading called the unquenchable worshipper by matt redman. the chapter i picked up on was called the unsatisfiable worshipper. it was kinda ironic how it flowed with what i'd seen earlier, plus that particular quote is what finished out this particular chapter. buuut, the quote from the chapter that caught my eye though was this one.
"i remain an unsatisfied worshipper, limping toward wholeness yet full of hope and gratitude."
to me that hit on everything. #1 being frustrated with life and situations and sometimes looking soo forward to moving on to what i know IS better #2 knowing what it feels like to be a gimp in life--my spiritual life, trying very hard but not quite making it (limping is a great illustration) #3 knowing God will get me where he needs and wants me and #4 most importantly being thankful God is in control, he is an AMAZING God and it's not all about me.
that quote was a great reminder of perserverance in the midst of not understanding or even feeling content where i'm at, which i know all of us have hit that point if we aren't there currently. God used it to remind me that my state of mind does not dictate my attitude or actions. sometimes we use our unsatifiableness (great word) as a crutch or even let ourselves be consumed with seeking satisfaction rather than taking care of God's business. the problem is in seeking satisfaction or when it's a crutch we tend to make ourselves the focus of most things in our spiritual life, our acts of worship, and our sacrifices. i wonder if Jesus was satisfied here on earth, i seriously doubt it, but that never changed his calling, him fulfilling that and his attitude about it. i guess the boat people miss is that being unsatisfied as far as knowing there is more, desiring what we don't understand and never knowing enough/being close enough to God is not necessarily a bad thing but, being unsatisfied and letting it stand in the way of God's instructions or focusing only on seeking satisfaction is not a good thing.
i think i'm rambling now...what i do encourage you to do, as i am, is evaluate yourself. not in order to make yourself feel terrible about yourself, remember the "limping toward wholeness" part we are allll there, BUT in order to know where God needs to take over and you need to relinquish control. i hope this made sense.