Hola People
Hello..decided to update since I've got nothing better to do and just chillin in my room..cuz its DAMN cold outside...fucking bing..
Anyway..so I've been having thoughts about basically the lack of point of life and how nothing anyone does really matters..including myself..and I know that I'm probably not the only one that has those type of thoughts..but the lack of work and books has got me bored and thinking morbid thoughts...I feel that maybe this is my way of not dealing with the future and deciding what i want to be...but every time I think about the future..my mind keeps going to: What's the point?....and even when i look at people i think about how it doesn't matter whether we're thin, beautiful or rich..because we're all gonna die anyway..so what does it matter...umm...basically i think i'm kinda depressed but thats just a bad self-diagnose..and i could be wrong...maybe this is normal for college juniors that have no future...
But i swear every time someone makes a comment to me about how they should do these extracurriculars and take those classes for med school or something...i keep wanting to say how it doesn't matter...we all have the same end anyway..and thats pretty messed up...i mean i haven't gotten to the point where i want to just abandon everything and do whatever i want because life has no point...but i can't bring myself to think about the future at all...do any research or anything..and I know thats bad...but i just keep procrastinating and even though i have lots of free time...i would rather stare at my computer screen than anything else...
Anyway...just wanted to get my thoughts out...otherwise nothing interesting here..love you all
Inna
Anyway..so I've been having thoughts about basically the lack of point of life and how nothing anyone does really matters..including myself..and I know that I'm probably not the only one that has those type of thoughts..but the lack of work and books has got me bored and thinking morbid thoughts...I feel that maybe this is my way of not dealing with the future and deciding what i want to be...but every time I think about the future..my mind keeps going to: What's the point?....and even when i look at people i think about how it doesn't matter whether we're thin, beautiful or rich..because we're all gonna die anyway..so what does it matter...umm...basically i think i'm kinda depressed but thats just a bad self-diagnose..and i could be wrong...maybe this is normal for college juniors that have no future...
But i swear every time someone makes a comment to me about how they should do these extracurriculars and take those classes for med school or something...i keep wanting to say how it doesn't matter...we all have the same end anyway..and thats pretty messed up...i mean i haven't gotten to the point where i want to just abandon everything and do whatever i want because life has no point...but i can't bring myself to think about the future at all...do any research or anything..and I know thats bad...but i just keep procrastinating and even though i have lots of free time...i would rather stare at my computer screen than anything else...
Anyway...just wanted to get my thoughts out...otherwise nothing interesting here..love you all
Inna