ummm..hey there
So..time for the yearly or semester-ly update..i guess..lol..
Or actually I just needed to vent..
I've been feeling greatly stressed out this semester because I realized..hey this is the year you're supposed to decide your future, OMG..its as if for the past two years in college i've been just walking along a nice road..taking classes for my major and gen eds..when all of a sudden out of nowhere a HUGE fucking brick wall hits me in the face..like out of fucking nowhere..and its as if those past two years were for like nothing...like yea i wasn't taking random classes or anything..but the future and my profession seemed like they were pretty far off..then comes junior year and bam..what's my future?..what am i gonna do for the next 30-40 years of my life?..and thats when i realize..i have no future..i have no fucking clue what i want to be..and next semester i'm supposed to take GRE's and stuff..and i have no fucking clue what grad school i want to got to..wtf..i am so not ready for this..i am like fucking 5..i can even pass for a high schooler pretty damn easily...and thats what i feel like..i'm not ready to grow up and become an adult...i want my mommy!!!..wahhh!!..ok just kidding on the last comments..but seriously how am i supposed to know what i want to do for the rest of my life NOW...i know i like the sciences and would like to work in a science-related field..but after that..i'm fucked...
I don't know what to do..i feel so lost and helpless...and i am so stressed out..i feel like i can't deal with it and just want to disappear for a lil while..oh and on top of this..since jon is a senior he will be picking a law school to go to next semester..and since he wants to be near me....i have to figure out what grad school i want to go to..like fucking next semester..and which one will take me also..so that he knows where he should go to..i want to be near him because i am so afraid that a long distance thing won't work..but i also want him to go to the best school that he can get into..because it will be better for his future...i have no clue what to do..god, i wish i was little...fuck being an adult..no thanks..you can have it..
bleh,
Inna
Or actually I just needed to vent..
I've been feeling greatly stressed out this semester because I realized..hey this is the year you're supposed to decide your future, OMG..its as if for the past two years in college i've been just walking along a nice road..taking classes for my major and gen eds..when all of a sudden out of nowhere a HUGE fucking brick wall hits me in the face..like out of fucking nowhere..and its as if those past two years were for like nothing...like yea i wasn't taking random classes or anything..but the future and my profession seemed like they were pretty far off..then comes junior year and bam..what's my future?..what am i gonna do for the next 30-40 years of my life?..and thats when i realize..i have no future..i have no fucking clue what i want to be..and next semester i'm supposed to take GRE's and stuff..and i have no fucking clue what grad school i want to got to..wtf..i am so not ready for this..i am like fucking 5..i can even pass for a high schooler pretty damn easily...and thats what i feel like..i'm not ready to grow up and become an adult...i want my mommy!!!..wahhh!!..ok just kidding on the last comments..but seriously how am i supposed to know what i want to do for the rest of my life NOW...i know i like the sciences and would like to work in a science-related field..but after that..i'm fucked...
I don't know what to do..i feel so lost and helpless...and i am so stressed out..i feel like i can't deal with it and just want to disappear for a lil while..oh and on top of this..since jon is a senior he will be picking a law school to go to next semester..and since he wants to be near me....i have to figure out what grad school i want to go to..like fucking next semester..and which one will take me also..so that he knows where he should go to..i want to be near him because i am so afraid that a long distance thing won't work..but i also want him to go to the best school that he can get into..because it will be better for his future...i have no clue what to do..god, i wish i was little...fuck being an adult..no thanks..you can have it..
bleh,
Inna