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its been a year now,
since you were here now,
and i've been trying to heal inside...
wow i can't believe its really been a year since holly died.
and i still miss her. i don't think i ever really coped with it to start with. because i felt guilty for feeling so bad about it since i wasn't even that good of friends with her the last few years and people like celia were best friends with her. and then i tihnk that i shouldn't feel guilty over that, i should feel sad that she is gone regardless of how close i was to her.
and then i think that i just think too much and i need to stop!
im sad.
goddddddddddddddddddddddd.
i was going to say so much more, so many more profound things about death and dying. but i can't think of anything.
since you were here now,
and i've been trying to heal inside...
wow i can't believe its really been a year since holly died.
and i still miss her. i don't think i ever really coped with it to start with. because i felt guilty for feeling so bad about it since i wasn't even that good of friends with her the last few years and people like celia were best friends with her. and then i tihnk that i shouldn't feel guilty over that, i should feel sad that she is gone regardless of how close i was to her.
and then i think that i just think too much and i need to stop!
im sad.
goddddddddddddddddddddddd.
i was going to say so much more, so many more profound things about death and dying. but i can't think of anything.