i need to write more

[emilystyles]

i was just reading my old diaryland diary, and i realized that i used to have the ability to write. maybe i still do, just don't take the effort. perhaps cos im done with school? wow i really don't miss taking tests, studying, homework, and writing papers. i really do not. yesterday my mom was like "i am willing to pay for you to take one graduate class next semester just as long as you get health insurance". i really don't think that would be worth it. i told her i wouldn't try! at this point, you really can't make me go to school. i wouldn't even go for free. and that is that. it's just getting old..the whole run around of the job hunt, not really having health insurance thing. i mean true, my parents are paying for it monthly, but that's their choice. if it were up to me i wouldn't have health insurance at all. i just can't help but feel guilty about the whole scenario. i also have no control though. i need car insurance more than health. ha. makes sense, well not really. my tummy is growling. but i have pains in my lower abdomen as well. my body is sending me mixed signals. now i suddenly feel nauseous. in an instant things change. no matter what the circumstance! i miss b more than ever. this proves i can't live without him. i hate puerto vallarta! well not really ha but still. =/ 2 days down. 6 to go. come home soon<3 this weekend sucks too. no game on sunday! ;( i gotta wait til monday nite. figures. i just get so used to having my sundays occupied by the games. i asked my sister to go to portsmouth with me for shopping and stuff. tonite im going out with people from my work. we're going to eat @ not your average joe's. nummy nummy. im gonna go in an hour early today so i can go walking with the crew @ lunchtime. noone good is online, ever. i have like no online friends, but i guess that isn't such a terrible thing. i just remember back in the day always having a million ims. now i can have my sn on for hours and not get an im. such is life. i guess i should go get ready. im gonna try to write more often. i need to.
note: if i ever write that im listening to music, im not really listening to it, it's just the song that's in my head @ the time.