castles made of sand fall into the sea eventually...
well im here in ohio now. have been for a while, but i havent had internet access. my life is just a mess right now. well, i shouldnt say my LIFE is a mess, i am just a mess. i've been really stupid lately. i've done things that i shouldnt have done. but hey, what can you do about it right? my family is extremely disappointed in me. i dont really have anyone to talk to either, so ive been pretty lonely. thank you casey and cat, for talking to me. youre pretty much all i have right now. i mean, i know that my family and some of my friends love me, but it's just hard to believe sometimes. i just sit in my room and listen to music all day hoping the phone will ring. sometimes it does, most of the time it doesnt. i guess that i've always been that person that you only go to if you need sympathy. because i'm the type of person that will sit there and tell you everything is going to be ok and how much i love you. i've been really emotional lately, for stupid reasons. like i'll just hear a song on the radio and burst into tears. but then again, thats not unusual for me anymore, ive been crying a lot lately. not for any particular reason, of course. well, i love you all. am i a terrible person? i sure feel like one.