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I don't write in this thing often anymore. But now that Kate is my friend on here, I figure I'll give her a little something to read. I leave for Virginia Sunday. For three weeks. I just got back a week ago from Virginia. It's very bitter sweet. I'm glad to be getting away from work for 3 weeks... even though I'll still be sorta working... I'm going to get some training. BUT... it's not here at Beale, a little break from the people I work with. I told Luke it's the first time I've ever felt guilty leaving work, and I'm not leaving by choice... so I don't know why I feel so bad. I just know that while I'm gone, everything is going to be on his shoulders as far as leadership. Not that I do a whole lot of the actual work, but I've been pretty good at making sure everyone else is working. Now he's going to be left to do the work, and try and get the other people to put in their fair share. It's just the first time that I've ever really been in an authoritative role, and it just feels like I'm leaving my people behind.
Another part of the sweet is that Leslie's only about a 3 1/2 hour drive from where I'm going to be staying, and she's thinking she might take a drive up one of the weekends I'm out there to visit. That'll be nice, getting to see her on the gov't's dime.
But there's sooo much on the bitter side. I haven't been away from Joe this long since we moved in together a year and a half ago, and I've NEVER been away from Alex that long, and Joe hasn't had to be alone with the baby for that long. I know he can handle it, but it's just going to be tough not being able to get a break, or really any alone time. I wouldn't be able to survive without him, he's the best dad in the whole world. I don't think I tell him enough how wonderful he is for staying with her all day, and being a super dad. But anyway, I'm totally freaking out about being away for so long. I have this horrible feeling that she won't remember me when I get back. It's hard enough that I'm gone 8+ hours a day 5 days a week, now I'm leaving for 3 whole weeks, and for a 5 month old that's like being gone for years. Luke is letting me take his laptop, and I bought webcams so I can still see her while I'm gone, and she can see me and hear my voice. He's definitely a life saver for letting me take his computer away for so long.
Well, I should sleep. I'm exhausted.
Another part of the sweet is that Leslie's only about a 3 1/2 hour drive from where I'm going to be staying, and she's thinking she might take a drive up one of the weekends I'm out there to visit. That'll be nice, getting to see her on the gov't's dime.
But there's sooo much on the bitter side. I haven't been away from Joe this long since we moved in together a year and a half ago, and I've NEVER been away from Alex that long, and Joe hasn't had to be alone with the baby for that long. I know he can handle it, but it's just going to be tough not being able to get a break, or really any alone time. I wouldn't be able to survive without him, he's the best dad in the whole world. I don't think I tell him enough how wonderful he is for staying with her all day, and being a super dad. But anyway, I'm totally freaking out about being away for so long. I have this horrible feeling that she won't remember me when I get back. It's hard enough that I'm gone 8+ hours a day 5 days a week, now I'm leaving for 3 whole weeks, and for a 5 month old that's like being gone for years. Luke is letting me take his laptop, and I bought webcams so I can still see her while I'm gone, and she can see me and hear my voice. He's definitely a life saver for letting me take his computer away for so long.
Well, I should sleep. I'm exhausted.