I don't know...
I think I'm coming to the end of my rope.
Work today really sucked. Mostly, because I'm exhausted, and I still had three more days to go! I can barely keep my eyes open when I'm driving to work.
It was raining when I got home, so I didn't go for a walk. All I wanted to do was lie down on the bed. But SOMEONE had peed all over the bed. Yes, my pillow and blankets were soaked. All the way through to the mattress pad.
I just lost it. I was soooo tired. I started crying and could not stop. I don't know what to do. I seriously considered just bringing them all back. I'm supposed to bring them back rather than give them to someone else; that's the agreement I signed. On one hand I would feel like a failure and feel bad for them, because they are so sweet and happy to be here (for the most part.) But on the other hand, it would make life a lot easier.
I went online to see what I can do. What I read (and had read before) said, with cats, if they fight, it will only escalate. It said cats will urinate out of anxiety and fear--not just marking. I knew from the first time she did it, it was because she was so scared. But every time I think she's getting better, she does it again! This time was the worst.
If I can't trust that even my damn bed is free of cat pee, what am I supposed to do?
Different sites I read said to bring the cat in for a full check up and maybe the doctor should prescribe anti-anxiety drugs while you work on the cat's behavior issues. I really didn't like the last vet I brought Daisypie to. I liked the first one when I brought Kabibe (same office, different doctors) but not that much. There is a place that specializes in cats right up the road from the other vet, so I may call there tomorrow and make an appointment for Kabibe.
I looked and the doctor has a site. He has a part with questions and answers, and I liked the advice he gave.
Part of the problem is Simcha seeking Kabibe out to get her worked up. She doesn't attack her, but she comes up to her and stands there until attacked, and then gets right into the fight.
I suppose I could just bring back one of them, either Simcha or Kabibe, but I don't know which. At first, I thought Simcha, but she's not the one pissing all over the place (and sometimes pooping). The reason I don't think it's marking is the way Kabibe's doing it. She's not peeing on the walls. She's peeing in clothes or fabric then burying it.
I feel so bad because she is so sweet and lovable. They all are. I wish the two of them would just get along so I wouldn't have to worry about it. I just don't know how many more times I can find something soaked with pee. It's weird, too because it's not that smelly like cat pee normally is. It's very watery and clear. It's almost like she drinks a bunch of water beforehand just to have enough to pee all over something.
I'm not in the right frame of mind to make these kinds of decisions. I really DO feel like I'm at the end of my rope emotionally and mentally these days. I know now it was very unwise to bring these cats home. In many ways, they make me happy, but not when they are screeching and peeing.
And my depression and chronic fatigue have both been bad in the past few weeks; getting worse.
Maybe tomorrow or the next day I can think more clearly what to do. On my days off, I either have to bring one (or more) back or just bring Kabibe to the vet. Maybe I can help her problem instead of just giving up on her. I hate to think of any of them having to go back after finding a home, just because I can't deal with it. Cats arent' exactly hard.
I should go to bed. I'm going to be always paranoid now that since she peed there once, she'll do it again. Thank God the pee didn't get on the mattress at all. The pillow and blanket soaked up most of it, and the pad got the rest.
Work today really sucked. Mostly, because I'm exhausted, and I still had three more days to go! I can barely keep my eyes open when I'm driving to work.
It was raining when I got home, so I didn't go for a walk. All I wanted to do was lie down on the bed. But SOMEONE had peed all over the bed. Yes, my pillow and blankets were soaked. All the way through to the mattress pad.
I just lost it. I was soooo tired. I started crying and could not stop. I don't know what to do. I seriously considered just bringing them all back. I'm supposed to bring them back rather than give them to someone else; that's the agreement I signed. On one hand I would feel like a failure and feel bad for them, because they are so sweet and happy to be here (for the most part.) But on the other hand, it would make life a lot easier.
I went online to see what I can do. What I read (and had read before) said, with cats, if they fight, it will only escalate. It said cats will urinate out of anxiety and fear--not just marking. I knew from the first time she did it, it was because she was so scared. But every time I think she's getting better, she does it again! This time was the worst.
If I can't trust that even my damn bed is free of cat pee, what am I supposed to do?
Different sites I read said to bring the cat in for a full check up and maybe the doctor should prescribe anti-anxiety drugs while you work on the cat's behavior issues. I really didn't like the last vet I brought Daisypie to. I liked the first one when I brought Kabibe (same office, different doctors) but not that much. There is a place that specializes in cats right up the road from the other vet, so I may call there tomorrow and make an appointment for Kabibe.
I looked and the doctor has a site. He has a part with questions and answers, and I liked the advice he gave.
Part of the problem is Simcha seeking Kabibe out to get her worked up. She doesn't attack her, but she comes up to her and stands there until attacked, and then gets right into the fight.
I suppose I could just bring back one of them, either Simcha or Kabibe, but I don't know which. At first, I thought Simcha, but she's not the one pissing all over the place (and sometimes pooping). The reason I don't think it's marking is the way Kabibe's doing it. She's not peeing on the walls. She's peeing in clothes or fabric then burying it.
I feel so bad because she is so sweet and lovable. They all are. I wish the two of them would just get along so I wouldn't have to worry about it. I just don't know how many more times I can find something soaked with pee. It's weird, too because it's not that smelly like cat pee normally is. It's very watery and clear. It's almost like she drinks a bunch of water beforehand just to have enough to pee all over something.
I'm not in the right frame of mind to make these kinds of decisions. I really DO feel like I'm at the end of my rope emotionally and mentally these days. I know now it was very unwise to bring these cats home. In many ways, they make me happy, but not when they are screeching and peeing.
And my depression and chronic fatigue have both been bad in the past few weeks; getting worse.
Maybe tomorrow or the next day I can think more clearly what to do. On my days off, I either have to bring one (or more) back or just bring Kabibe to the vet. Maybe I can help her problem instead of just giving up on her. I hate to think of any of them having to go back after finding a home, just because I can't deal with it. Cats arent' exactly hard.
I should go to bed. I'm going to be always paranoid now that since she peed there once, she'll do it again. Thank God the pee didn't get on the mattress at all. The pillow and blanket soaked up most of it, and the pad got the rest.