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This weekend couldn't have gone any better. Okay well it could have been minus some stress but for the most part I needed it more than anything. Kathryn, Molly, and Emily were amazing. My parents left for Florida on Thursday and between the three of them and my brother and sister, I wasn't alone for more than a half hour at a time until Sunday evening. Yes I'm 23, and yes I miss my parents. When you see someone almost everyday for seven months straight you get used to having them around. God only knows what I'll do when I have to move out again. Hopefully I'll have a cool roommate so it'll make the transition easier.
Thursday Kathryn came over and we pretended to need to study for our CPR test. Her walking in the door and giving me a you know who hug was just what I needed. I tried to pull away and she wouldn't let me because she wasn't done hugging me. She looked through some of my clothes and hugged me again. I had a lump in my throat and the tingle in my nose like I was going to cry but I didn't need to because she was there. We watched some basketball, yes I watched it because she wanted to, and as long as I had her by my side we could have watched anything. Living in Hastings: a tv on the deck to watch the game in the hot tub. She let me talk, and most importantly she listened. At some points she could have not even really been listening and I wouldn't have cared, but I got it off my chest. She pushed me with her questioning and tried to hide her grin when I answered some. I see past those my love. We went to bed and giggled until my stomach hurt, I think Kathryn's already hurt and it was NOT from laughter. "That is one I will go to my grave not regretting". Friday morning we didn't want to get out of bed, but we did anyway because we had things to do.
Friday I was a busy bee. I spread out my errands so I wouldn't remember I was alone and my parents were on their way to sunny Florida. I got a new library card and I think Mols was the only one that was excited. I went to dinner with Erin, we sat for and hour and 45 minutes and just talked. That's what I love about her, I'll go for sometimes over a month without seeing her, and weeks without talking to her and when we get together it's as if I saw her last weekend. She's a strong girl that needs to be selfish sometimes. She gave me her opinion because she is someone from the outside. She knows what she wants and isn't afraid to say so. She told me to follow my heart, and I know I need to, and I know that everyone has been telling me this, but hearing it from her who has been there physically, mentally, and emotionally for me through quite a few heart breaks reassured me about what I needed to do. Off to Mols for the MSU basketball game. We left before it was over to go to the bar, yes it was that bad. I didn't drink at the bar and didn't need to. When Cullen pushed our tables together I thought the night was going to be sufficiently awkward, and it wasn't. I was able to put the past behind me and just be myself. If you don't like who I am today, you don't have to talk to me. Inviting people over just to get a phone number was the highlight of my night. My drives home with Molly (the whole 10 blocks) from anywhere we go are always my favorite because we recap so much in that short time.
Saturday I slept in and then cleaned up the house. Kathryn came over to study and seeing how upset she was let me know I'm normal. Even "perfect" situations have their rough spots. I didn't hug her, just let her talk because I just felt that's what she needed to do. I didn't even really respond back because sometimes she just needs to talk to make herself feel better. We took our test, and both missed two questions, the exact same two. We joked around about CPR and saving kids in our classroom...and Kathryn practiced being a 14 year old freshman with her baby. Off to Burger King, we were going to do Arby's but then I had to mention Burger King and it sounded better. We laughed. Hard. We were mean about having other names for people. We are bitches and I love it. Off on our seperate ways to do our own thing. I had a frustrating phone call and Em was there to take my tears and balance the frustration. I don't know what I would do without her. Cleaning up the house, getting ready, and laughing as more and more people filled my bedroom. Lexi came and I was so excited to see her. She comes and goes at random times and always lightens up everything. Keri was SO much fun. She seems to be relaxed, she seems to have let go, I loved it. Her and Kathryn were laughing so hard at one point I didn't think they'd be able to do anything else for the rest of the night. There is way, way too much to put into this that not everyone would find funny...and I've pretty much already typed a novel. I will say what got me through the night was Mols' and my text messages under the blanket two feet away from each other, and my best friend squeezing my hand, holding my hand and drying my tears. She's leaving in a month and a half, you are not. Everyone was cranky in the morning but we couldn't help but laugh over the night before. You can't stay in too sour of a mood with those people around.
Sunday I was an emotional mess all day, I guess that's what 20 minutes of sleep does to you. Amanda was home all day and so were Jackson and Liz. Amanda and I laughed all day it seems about the tingle in my nose at random times, and she gave me advice without knowing she was giving me advice. That's why I have the best sister in the world. When they all left and my house was too quiet I turned on the tv really loud, put a million lights on and cried. What else was I to do? Kathryn called me at the perfect time and calmed me down, Emily called me from Jake's phone to tell me something pointless, and then Molly came over right before bed so I could literally climb into bed as soon as she left exhausted. These three mean the world to me.
Sorry this was a novel and probably only two of you actually enjoyed reading it. Until next time, bunches of love.
Thursday Kathryn came over and we pretended to need to study for our CPR test. Her walking in the door and giving me a you know who hug was just what I needed. I tried to pull away and she wouldn't let me because she wasn't done hugging me. She looked through some of my clothes and hugged me again. I had a lump in my throat and the tingle in my nose like I was going to cry but I didn't need to because she was there. We watched some basketball, yes I watched it because she wanted to, and as long as I had her by my side we could have watched anything. Living in Hastings: a tv on the deck to watch the game in the hot tub. She let me talk, and most importantly she listened. At some points she could have not even really been listening and I wouldn't have cared, but I got it off my chest. She pushed me with her questioning and tried to hide her grin when I answered some. I see past those my love. We went to bed and giggled until my stomach hurt, I think Kathryn's already hurt and it was NOT from laughter. "That is one I will go to my grave not regretting". Friday morning we didn't want to get out of bed, but we did anyway because we had things to do.
Friday I was a busy bee. I spread out my errands so I wouldn't remember I was alone and my parents were on their way to sunny Florida. I got a new library card and I think Mols was the only one that was excited. I went to dinner with Erin, we sat for and hour and 45 minutes and just talked. That's what I love about her, I'll go for sometimes over a month without seeing her, and weeks without talking to her and when we get together it's as if I saw her last weekend. She's a strong girl that needs to be selfish sometimes. She gave me her opinion because she is someone from the outside. She knows what she wants and isn't afraid to say so. She told me to follow my heart, and I know I need to, and I know that everyone has been telling me this, but hearing it from her who has been there physically, mentally, and emotionally for me through quite a few heart breaks reassured me about what I needed to do. Off to Mols for the MSU basketball game. We left before it was over to go to the bar, yes it was that bad. I didn't drink at the bar and didn't need to. When Cullen pushed our tables together I thought the night was going to be sufficiently awkward, and it wasn't. I was able to put the past behind me and just be myself. If you don't like who I am today, you don't have to talk to me. Inviting people over just to get a phone number was the highlight of my night. My drives home with Molly (the whole 10 blocks) from anywhere we go are always my favorite because we recap so much in that short time.
Saturday I slept in and then cleaned up the house. Kathryn came over to study and seeing how upset she was let me know I'm normal. Even "perfect" situations have their rough spots. I didn't hug her, just let her talk because I just felt that's what she needed to do. I didn't even really respond back because sometimes she just needs to talk to make herself feel better. We took our test, and both missed two questions, the exact same two. We joked around about CPR and saving kids in our classroom...and Kathryn practiced being a 14 year old freshman with her baby. Off to Burger King, we were going to do Arby's but then I had to mention Burger King and it sounded better. We laughed. Hard. We were mean about having other names for people. We are bitches and I love it. Off on our seperate ways to do our own thing. I had a frustrating phone call and Em was there to take my tears and balance the frustration. I don't know what I would do without her. Cleaning up the house, getting ready, and laughing as more and more people filled my bedroom. Lexi came and I was so excited to see her. She comes and goes at random times and always lightens up everything. Keri was SO much fun. She seems to be relaxed, she seems to have let go, I loved it. Her and Kathryn were laughing so hard at one point I didn't think they'd be able to do anything else for the rest of the night. There is way, way too much to put into this that not everyone would find funny...and I've pretty much already typed a novel. I will say what got me through the night was Mols' and my text messages under the blanket two feet away from each other, and my best friend squeezing my hand, holding my hand and drying my tears. She's leaving in a month and a half, you are not. Everyone was cranky in the morning but we couldn't help but laugh over the night before. You can't stay in too sour of a mood with those people around.
Sunday I was an emotional mess all day, I guess that's what 20 minutes of sleep does to you. Amanda was home all day and so were Jackson and Liz. Amanda and I laughed all day it seems about the tingle in my nose at random times, and she gave me advice without knowing she was giving me advice. That's why I have the best sister in the world. When they all left and my house was too quiet I turned on the tv really loud, put a million lights on and cried. What else was I to do? Kathryn called me at the perfect time and calmed me down, Emily called me from Jake's phone to tell me something pointless, and then Molly came over right before bed so I could literally climb into bed as soon as she left exhausted. These three mean the world to me.
Sorry this was a novel and probably only two of you actually enjoyed reading it. Until next time, bunches of love.