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I really really really hate emo entries a lot, but I feel that it is appropriate. I can be emo-ly. Haha I'm punny.
Well you see, this summer has been pretty dope. Gotten to know a lot of people better bla bla bla. But some of the magic of life has been put out. I know this sounds incredibly corny, but I think once I start singing again things will get better. It's my thang ya know? And i haven't been able to do it all summer. Except in France but that's over.
Okay but that's not the point. I don't really know what the real point is excpet that I often get this really bad feeling. Like when I'm not with my friends I REALLY want to be with them. But then when I'm with them I just want to be by myself. Because something or other pisses me off. One person in particular. I know this person would NEVER try and make me upset, but sometimes I feel like I'm not funny enough, cute enough, I'm not enough of Gabbe or Maddie or Amy.
Gabbe and Maddie and Amy can do no wrong. And I guess I'm just trying too hard? Apparently I am. I feel like somtimes I don't fit this person's mold of what a girl should be like.
I'm absolutly positive this person isn't trying to make me feel bad, it's just this person's point of view that comes across. Sometimes I think that's worse. Because none of it's intentional. That's the way they REALLY feel.
Today I just left and wanted to be by myself. I said I had do work but I just left them to go do their own thing.
I'm going to be so busy once school starts.
One free day during the week, and then the weekend. That's okay though. Atleast I still get the weekend. I love being busy. It's going to be all music and moneymaking from here on out.
I just wish I didn't want to up and leave every time I'm in a group setting with this person. I hate feeling inadequate.
Well you see, this summer has been pretty dope. Gotten to know a lot of people better bla bla bla. But some of the magic of life has been put out. I know this sounds incredibly corny, but I think once I start singing again things will get better. It's my thang ya know? And i haven't been able to do it all summer. Except in France but that's over.
Okay but that's not the point. I don't really know what the real point is excpet that I often get this really bad feeling. Like when I'm not with my friends I REALLY want to be with them. But then when I'm with them I just want to be by myself. Because something or other pisses me off. One person in particular. I know this person would NEVER try and make me upset, but sometimes I feel like I'm not funny enough, cute enough, I'm not enough of Gabbe or Maddie or Amy.
Gabbe and Maddie and Amy can do no wrong. And I guess I'm just trying too hard? Apparently I am. I feel like somtimes I don't fit this person's mold of what a girl should be like.
I'm absolutly positive this person isn't trying to make me feel bad, it's just this person's point of view that comes across. Sometimes I think that's worse. Because none of it's intentional. That's the way they REALLY feel.
Today I just left and wanted to be by myself. I said I had do work but I just left them to go do their own thing.
I'm going to be so busy once school starts.
One free day during the week, and then the weekend. That's okay though. Atleast I still get the weekend. I love being busy. It's going to be all music and moneymaking from here on out.
I just wish I didn't want to up and leave every time I'm in a group setting with this person. I hate feeling inadequate.