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yo. i'm pissed.
i just had an argument with keith last night, again, about whether my relationship with diogo was destructive or not.
lauren and i had a long discussion about it today and how my experiences in portugal would affect my potential experience if i go to mexico this summer.
he ims me.
aside from him once writing on my wall that he's selling my apartment, we haven't had a conversation in about two months.
Diogo says (5:21 PM):
Hey Em
Emily says (5:22 PM):
hey
Diogo says (5:22 PM):
how re u?
Emily says (5:22 PM):
good, you?
Diogo says (5:22 PM):
Very good
Emily says (5:23 PM):
thats good
Diogo says (5:24 PM):
Holy fuck.. i forget how cute u are
is this....is he...can someone fucking explain to me how he ALWAYS KNOWS when to strike? that time he wrote on my wall about selling his apartment? that was the day after i hooked up with jimmy. and all day today diogo's been on my mind since i watched slumdog millionaire, which always for some reason reminds me of him. fucker.
so the conversation is fine...then i ask how many girls he's been with since summer.
4.
...
4.
4? Are you serious? you fucking flipped out at me when i was at TWO because i had surpassed your one. and you've left me with the lingering guilt, knowing that it'll probably make me think twice before i hook up with another guy again.
and now you're 4.
well fuck you, i hooked up with jimmy twice because he happens to be the only one who can come close to comparing to you. and you know what? he doesn't just come close, he's there. you're hot, you're sexy, yeah that's all great. so is he. he's cute, he's built, he's sexy, and best of all, he's a fucking GENTLEMAN. he treats me like he cares about me, he doesn't lie to me, and he puts me first. and we're talking about a guy i've only hooked up with twice. what the fuck have you been doing?!
you don't have shit on him. i don't fucking care if i fell in love with you, you're being kind of a dick and i'm questioning whether that's just your current behavior or your general nature...being a dick.
best of all, he signed off without saying bye. gotta love that!
Diogo says (5:57 PM):
more than once?
u have been with one f those guys again?
Emily says (5:57 PM):
yes one of them
Diogo says (6:02 PM):
ok
Emily says (6:03 PM):
well im only at two
and youre at four
so you cant be mad
Diogo says (6:06 PM):
im not mad
Emily says (6:07 PM):
okauy
Diogo says (6:07 PM):
ah
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Emily said (6:08 PM):
..bye?
what a motherfucker. you just wanted to drop in and say hi to get you on my mind? well it fucking worked, but not how i'm sure you had hoped. this little conversation certainly does change things. now, anytime i'm having any second thoughts about hooking up with a guy they're going out the window. fuck that, i ain't feeling guilty for that shit, i'm 18 years old and i can do what i want. i'm clearly not even ON his priority list anymore, so that's fine. i am unleashed. james, jimmy, adam, andrew...no fucking hesitation anymore.
and the whole pussying out and stopping jimmy from going any further thing?
yeah, fuck that.
fuck you diogo. all you wanted was to get laid. and you got it. and now you have to sift through ugly manly portuguese girls to get it again. enjoy, i'm gonna go live with no regrets.
peace!
argh
i just had an argument with keith last night, again, about whether my relationship with diogo was destructive or not.
lauren and i had a long discussion about it today and how my experiences in portugal would affect my potential experience if i go to mexico this summer.
he ims me.
aside from him once writing on my wall that he's selling my apartment, we haven't had a conversation in about two months.
Diogo says (5:21 PM):
Hey Em
Emily says (5:22 PM):
hey
Diogo says (5:22 PM):
how re u?
Emily says (5:22 PM):
good, you?
Diogo says (5:22 PM):
Very good
Emily says (5:23 PM):
thats good
Diogo says (5:24 PM):
Holy fuck.. i forget how cute u are
is this....is he...can someone fucking explain to me how he ALWAYS KNOWS when to strike? that time he wrote on my wall about selling his apartment? that was the day after i hooked up with jimmy. and all day today diogo's been on my mind since i watched slumdog millionaire, which always for some reason reminds me of him. fucker.
so the conversation is fine...then i ask how many girls he's been with since summer.
4.
...
4.
4? Are you serious? you fucking flipped out at me when i was at TWO because i had surpassed your one. and you've left me with the lingering guilt, knowing that it'll probably make me think twice before i hook up with another guy again.
and now you're 4.
well fuck you, i hooked up with jimmy twice because he happens to be the only one who can come close to comparing to you. and you know what? he doesn't just come close, he's there. you're hot, you're sexy, yeah that's all great. so is he. he's cute, he's built, he's sexy, and best of all, he's a fucking GENTLEMAN. he treats me like he cares about me, he doesn't lie to me, and he puts me first. and we're talking about a guy i've only hooked up with twice. what the fuck have you been doing?!
you don't have shit on him. i don't fucking care if i fell in love with you, you're being kind of a dick and i'm questioning whether that's just your current behavior or your general nature...being a dick.
best of all, he signed off without saying bye. gotta love that!
Diogo says (5:57 PM):
more than once?
u have been with one f those guys again?
Emily says (5:57 PM):
yes one of them
Diogo says (6:02 PM):
ok
Emily says (6:03 PM):
well im only at two
and youre at four
so you cant be mad
Diogo says (6:06 PM):
im not mad
Emily says (6:07 PM):
okauy
Diogo says (6:07 PM):
ah
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Emily said (6:08 PM):
..bye?
what a motherfucker. you just wanted to drop in and say hi to get you on my mind? well it fucking worked, but not how i'm sure you had hoped. this little conversation certainly does change things. now, anytime i'm having any second thoughts about hooking up with a guy they're going out the window. fuck that, i ain't feeling guilty for that shit, i'm 18 years old and i can do what i want. i'm clearly not even ON his priority list anymore, so that's fine. i am unleashed. james, jimmy, adam, andrew...no fucking hesitation anymore.
and the whole pussying out and stopping jimmy from going any further thing?
yeah, fuck that.
fuck you diogo. all you wanted was to get laid. and you got it. and now you have to sift through ugly manly portuguese girls to get it again. enjoy, i'm gonna go live with no regrets.
peace!
argh