valentine's day?
what a joke valentines is
i think it makes more people upset and hurt than it does happy
i mean dont get me wrong
it's cute and all i guess
idk
i just think that i've got an all around problem with letting thoughts/people control me
i need to think for my freaking self sometimes
do what i want! what's good for me!
i feel like there's things i have to say but there's no one i want to say them too
especially since i can't admit my problems to myself, who else am i going to open up to if i can't talk to myself sometimes.
i know i have stress issues, believe me, i knowww
but i feel like i have to stay "mature" about things, or what i label as being "mature" which turns into stress and turns me into a person i dont like to be around, much less beee
i guess i just need to be a kid? but that's not the way i operate.
i can goof off till the cows come home, but when it all comes down to it..
that's not always how i am, especially not on the inside.
i wish i could just tell myself to chill out and shut up sometimes, because people probably think that i'm just a loser who complains all the time. i hate that
idk why i do it, i'm just making things worse for myself
im sorry if i complain to you. ill try to fix that.
i kinda feel like i'm confined in my own thoughts, and they're holding me back from something that im supposed to be
[[who thinks i sound like siddhartha right now]]
ahhh, even scarier
anyways.
i think i need a psychologist or something
[krista and i together yay, i love her]
whatever
listen seriously
dont be a jerk, especially on valentines day? i mean really
who needs the drama?!
NOT EMILY.
i think it makes more people upset and hurt than it does happy
i mean dont get me wrong
it's cute and all i guess
idk
i just think that i've got an all around problem with letting thoughts/people control me
i need to think for my freaking self sometimes
do what i want! what's good for me!
i feel like there's things i have to say but there's no one i want to say them too
especially since i can't admit my problems to myself, who else am i going to open up to if i can't talk to myself sometimes.
i know i have stress issues, believe me, i knowww
but i feel like i have to stay "mature" about things, or what i label as being "mature" which turns into stress and turns me into a person i dont like to be around, much less beee
i guess i just need to be a kid? but that's not the way i operate.
i can goof off till the cows come home, but when it all comes down to it..
that's not always how i am, especially not on the inside.
i wish i could just tell myself to chill out and shut up sometimes, because people probably think that i'm just a loser who complains all the time. i hate that
idk why i do it, i'm just making things worse for myself
im sorry if i complain to you. ill try to fix that.
i kinda feel like i'm confined in my own thoughts, and they're holding me back from something that im supposed to be
[[who thinks i sound like siddhartha right now]]
ahhh, even scarier
anyways.
i think i need a psychologist or something
[krista and i together yay, i love her]
whatever
listen seriously
dont be a jerk, especially on valentines day? i mean really
who needs the drama?!
NOT EMILY.