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im excited im getting my hair cut on thursday. im sick of cutting my own hair i want someone else to do it this time. i really dont need a hair cut but oh well. i need a change.
my brother evan is moving here tomorrow. hes going to hate it. i hate it....i cant believe i ended up deciding to move here. i wish i had saved up money starting right when i moved back from florida.. then i wouldnt have had to move here and i could have stayed in california. but no all i did was party and blow all my fucking money on whatever i wanted to at the time. im not responsible when it comes to money or having any sort of responsibility AT ALL. i came out here saying "ok im going to do better..a fresh start and save up money and move out"..ive been here two months and i maybe have 200 dollars in my bank account right now.
not everything about oklahoma is bad..its just so unreal that im here. im happy that i met jon. he is no doubt the best boyfriend ive ever had. i feel so bad though..like i will get mad at him for no reason..for example he will mention a girls name and i almost freak out bc he mentioned another girls name that wasnt mine.. so i have to ask myself am i really that controlling? fuck i hope not i think i just have issues with past ex's fucking with my head and cheating on me.
yeah i dont know..
im out.
my brother evan is moving here tomorrow. hes going to hate it. i hate it....i cant believe i ended up deciding to move here. i wish i had saved up money starting right when i moved back from florida.. then i wouldnt have had to move here and i could have stayed in california. but no all i did was party and blow all my fucking money on whatever i wanted to at the time. im not responsible when it comes to money or having any sort of responsibility AT ALL. i came out here saying "ok im going to do better..a fresh start and save up money and move out"..ive been here two months and i maybe have 200 dollars in my bank account right now.
not everything about oklahoma is bad..its just so unreal that im here. im happy that i met jon. he is no doubt the best boyfriend ive ever had. i feel so bad though..like i will get mad at him for no reason..for example he will mention a girls name and i almost freak out bc he mentioned another girls name that wasnt mine.. so i have to ask myself am i really that controlling? fuck i hope not i think i just have issues with past ex's fucking with my head and cheating on me.
yeah i dont know..
im out.