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So I have been wanting to update livejournal for something like a million years. But I've been really busy lately, and all those other excuses.
I also wasn't sure what to write about. Not because there is such a lack of things to choose from, but quite the opposite; I am rather stunned by the variety right now. How do I narrow it down to something that won't just take up all your time to read (assuming you do read and keep up with what I do)? How do I keep it interesting to someone other than myself (and to be honest, sometimes not even myself)?
Of all those things that I can't choose from, the vast majority involves drama. Lots and lots of drama. I mean, this is the kind of drama I used to foam at mouth over when I was a little pre-teen idiot. Now, it's not so alluring. I always seem to be at the wrong point in life at the wrong time. Things don't happen when they should, or when they should happen, they don't.
I think about everything and I'm just at a loss. Sometimes I think I need to take back the reins and regain control. But part of me likes to see how things unfold, and to be perfectly honest, I never was that happy with being in control of everything. Maybe I just need to find a balance. Yes, balance... that's good.
Everything has been so scattered lately. I'm here and there, back and forth, everywhere, all at once. Nothing progresses, nothing regresses, there is no real order. I am not sure what to make of it.
I also wasn't sure what to write about. Not because there is such a lack of things to choose from, but quite the opposite; I am rather stunned by the variety right now. How do I narrow it down to something that won't just take up all your time to read (assuming you do read and keep up with what I do)? How do I keep it interesting to someone other than myself (and to be honest, sometimes not even myself)?
Of all those things that I can't choose from, the vast majority involves drama. Lots and lots of drama. I mean, this is the kind of drama I used to foam at mouth over when I was a little pre-teen idiot. Now, it's not so alluring. I always seem to be at the wrong point in life at the wrong time. Things don't happen when they should, or when they should happen, they don't.
I think about everything and I'm just at a loss. Sometimes I think I need to take back the reins and regain control. But part of me likes to see how things unfold, and to be perfectly honest, I never was that happy with being in control of everything. Maybe I just need to find a balance. Yes, balance... that's good.
Everything has been so scattered lately. I'm here and there, back and forth, everywhere, all at once. Nothing progresses, nothing regresses, there is no real order. I am not sure what to make of it.