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I feel kind of dead right now. Actually, I don't really feel at all. It's just kind of a passive, flat dullness. I don't think it's ever happened before. Ordinarily I would think this was a tragedy, or at least a curiosity, but right now it just... is.
This day just got worse and worse until I guess I just couldn't handle it. I just want to go to sleep for a very, very long time. I don't want to wake up until... what? Ever? If things keep going this way, what will I ever have to look forward to anyway?
I think I am hungry, but I can't really tell. I think I'm exhausted, but I'm not sure. I think I'm hurting, but that is also kind of fuzzy. Maybe I just think I should be all those things. I don't really know. At the moment I am not sure I care.
I need someone to talk to about it. All I have is a laptop and a keypad.
This day just got worse and worse until I guess I just couldn't handle it. I just want to go to sleep for a very, very long time. I don't want to wake up until... what? Ever? If things keep going this way, what will I ever have to look forward to anyway?
I think I am hungry, but I can't really tell. I think I'm exhausted, but I'm not sure. I think I'm hurting, but that is also kind of fuzzy. Maybe I just think I should be all those things. I don't really know. At the moment I am not sure I care.
I need someone to talk to about it. All I have is a laptop and a keypad.