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So, sometimes I get really sad.
And sometimes I am just really happy.
But for as long as I can remember, there has never been a good median of the two.
Nate's mom says I can move in if I get a job.
Ashley's trying to get back into her house.
I'm not quite sure what to do yet, or how I feel.
It's looking like Ashley and I will move out eventually.
Maybe Nate too.
I'm trying to rebuild my family ties. Trying to be around more... do more. I went and saw Step Up with my youngest sister. She sat there glued to the screen laughing and enjoying herself. She has too much character for being ten sometimes. Then there's Caitlin. She's going to be an emotional handful as teenage years come over her. Then again, I was too. I love her though - She has this innocence that I didn't have at her age.
I think I'm going to my mom's on Sunday. It never fails to amaze me at how much I miss her. Lately, some things have been coming up that I really could have used a mom to help me with, give me advice on, and talked to for. I'm SO VERY LUCKY to have Nate's mom in my life, but sometimes it's just not the same. Ya know, it's weird how much I miss Tim too. I thought I knew everything - and since I knew everything I hated that he tried to control what I did. But he was a parent and that's what they do, so I know now he just cared. I miss him too though.
I dunno, I'm done for now - so... bye.
And sometimes I am just really happy.
But for as long as I can remember, there has never been a good median of the two.
Nate's mom says I can move in if I get a job.
Ashley's trying to get back into her house.
I'm not quite sure what to do yet, or how I feel.
It's looking like Ashley and I will move out eventually.
Maybe Nate too.
I'm trying to rebuild my family ties. Trying to be around more... do more. I went and saw Step Up with my youngest sister. She sat there glued to the screen laughing and enjoying herself. She has too much character for being ten sometimes. Then there's Caitlin. She's going to be an emotional handful as teenage years come over her. Then again, I was too. I love her though - She has this innocence that I didn't have at her age.
I think I'm going to my mom's on Sunday. It never fails to amaze me at how much I miss her. Lately, some things have been coming up that I really could have used a mom to help me with, give me advice on, and talked to for. I'm SO VERY LUCKY to have Nate's mom in my life, but sometimes it's just not the same. Ya know, it's weird how much I miss Tim too. I thought I knew everything - and since I knew everything I hated that he tried to control what I did. But he was a parent and that's what they do, so I know now he just cared. I miss him too though.
I dunno, I'm done for now - so... bye.