sorry - stop worrying
Alright, my last post - although I felt every word of it, was a rant.
We all know I've worked too hard to gain my sanity back to throw it away in an instant of not knowing what to do.
After the post I spent two hours on the floor of my shower under scolding hot water crying. Everything, however, done and said, was a good day. I think I got what I needed. A bit of closure. I have what I need now to completely move on. To completely let go. And if, for some reason, our paths cross someday, I will smile at him with sincerity and hope he's doing well.
I'm cutting off my hair next week sometime. I need something new physically to match the something new internally. I'm going to be dying it too. I have NO idea what color(s), but I want a chunk of blue. Afterall, it's time I start living a little.
I still hurt, but it's all for reasons nobody would understand.
Because of that, nobody will ever know.
I appreciate those of you who worried; does show you care.
Thanks for comments, thoughts, prayers, and everything else you've done for me.
Just for future reference though, I am a strong girl, and will always be OK.
I have to be.
::Emily:: 3044683
We all know I've worked too hard to gain my sanity back to throw it away in an instant of not knowing what to do.
After the post I spent two hours on the floor of my shower under scolding hot water crying. Everything, however, done and said, was a good day. I think I got what I needed. A bit of closure. I have what I need now to completely move on. To completely let go. And if, for some reason, our paths cross someday, I will smile at him with sincerity and hope he's doing well.
I'm cutting off my hair next week sometime. I need something new physically to match the something new internally. I'm going to be dying it too. I have NO idea what color(s), but I want a chunk of blue. Afterall, it's time I start living a little.
I still hurt, but it's all for reasons nobody would understand.
Because of that, nobody will ever know.
I appreciate those of you who worried; does show you care.
Thanks for comments, thoughts, prayers, and everything else you've done for me.
Just for future reference though, I am a strong girl, and will always be OK.
I have to be.
::Emily:: 3044683