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I can be kind of a snob.
I don't want to be.
But at the same time, I don't know how to measure my successes without comparing myself to other people. I mean, how does a person measure if they're doing well? Emotions and intutition are good, but they're not tangible enough. So I settle for looking at the people around me and seeing what they're doing; where they're at. And I either feel worse then them (which just makes me feel like a loser) or I feel better than them and inevitably end up looking down on them.
But I don't know any other way. If I do something that makes me proud of myself, it's usually because I did something that's a challenge; that not everyone can do. And it makes me feel like an awesome person, because I did something that other people couldn't have handled. It makes me feel empowered at the expense of other people.
I want to be less judgemental, but I still want to have pride in myself. I wonder if there's a happy medium?
I don't want to be.
But at the same time, I don't know how to measure my successes without comparing myself to other people. I mean, how does a person measure if they're doing well? Emotions and intutition are good, but they're not tangible enough. So I settle for looking at the people around me and seeing what they're doing; where they're at. And I either feel worse then them (which just makes me feel like a loser) or I feel better than them and inevitably end up looking down on them.
But I don't know any other way. If I do something that makes me proud of myself, it's usually because I did something that's a challenge; that not everyone can do. And it makes me feel like an awesome person, because I did something that other people couldn't have handled. It makes me feel empowered at the expense of other people.
I want to be less judgemental, but I still want to have pride in myself. I wonder if there's a happy medium?