you drive me crazy
i'm feeling quite depressed at the moment. i don't know why but the only versions of "don't you ever stop" available on yesasia are the regular one and ueda&maru's. why is that? NANDE?! i feel like crying because i practically stole my dad's credit card (again, hehee) just to order it tonight and IT'S NOT THERE. fucking hell.
so it's free cone day tomorrow, think i'll head for great world city and liang court just for kicks. i need some tlc badly. can't wait to get my hands on popolo june issue arghhhh the wait is killing me HURRY UP, KINO!
work's been pretty screwed up. i'm working almost the same number of hours as my store manager - over 200 hours. it's crazy. and i'm holding on to the keys to the suntec store as well so we're shuttling between there and tanglinmall every few days. sunday was the most fucked up day ever. i feel sorry for my bsos coz she has so many problems and has to struggle on her own. if i don't help her out she pretty much has to rely on other people who might not want to put in hell lotta extra time like me. i'm like the ultimate sai kang warrior for everyone i think.
in actual fact i am very very exhausted. i know i keep on saying i'm tired and all that but i REALLY AM FUCKING TIRED. i spend 14 hours outside of home and when i get back there's usually nobody to welcome me coz everyone's asleep. i've lost the number of times i cried just because i felt so fucking lonely when i reach home. YES I CRY. i haven't spent a single weekend with my family and i really really hate it. and please try to understand when i say i'm too tired and i want to rest at home; i need to fucking recuperate too. i am fucking sick and tired of town and going anywhere. i know i haven't met so many of you for like fucking forever but i promise that next month i'll try my best to meet up for lunch or dinner or sumthn k? i miss everyone too, i really do.
may looks like an interesting month. i hope to get started on my driving lessons soon. my FTT's next monday and i think i might fail coz i haven't studied for it at all. and i forgot to book an e-trial slot. SIAL AH MEREPEK KAN. fuck it man.
anyways, mabel's 21st is coming up and i'm pretty excited coz most of the people are cosplaying so i think i will too. HAHAHA. i don't know what to come as though; i jokingly told her i'd cosplay bidou granmarie from yukan club coz that was junno's role. hahahaha. but i think mum would freak if i bleached and dye my hair blonde and i don't wanna wear a wig.
i also hope i get a reply from the universities soon.
......sorry about ranting so much.
you know what, i think i'll skip free cone day. i have three pints of it anyway. but i still want mame daifuku. and i can't help but think of kat-tun whenever i hear ne-yo's "so sick". rofl.
i really hate crowds.
sigh. heal me, taguchi.