LOOK AT MY ICON. IDEK.
So... I'm sure most of you would've known why my Twitter is in a mess, why I am in a mess right now. It's amazing that this post moved faster than any FFA ever did. I don't want to look at any Korean newspaper today, or tomorrow. When I'm in Seoul tomorrow, I don't want to think about it.
I know I sound really ridiculous right now. I mean, I'm 23 and idk him in real life he doesn't even know the existence of all of us but I'm still crying over the fact that he's actually found someone. She's his ideal girl. And he got her. Like. I'm like.
I DON'T KNOW. MY HEART IS BROKEN. I'm sorry for ranting here but I don't know why I'm like this. I should be mature enough to handle this, right? Apparently not? Here I am, mourning over the fact that he's with someone else. You know what... it was about this time last year when I found out that my real-life crush got together with someone. LOl. I just find it funny.
BUt I'm really upset about being upset if you get what I mean. It's not that I'm not happy for him - I can't bring myself to feel any joy in this occasion right now. I look at the pictures and you know what? I haven't seen him smile like that before.
And a lot of people on my t-list are like "GET OVER IT HE WASN'T YOURS ANYWAY" but I am upset and I need to rant to where do I go? I feel incredibly stupid for being like this, SERIOUSLY, but I can't stop myself? Omggggg I'm so pissed off with myself, honestly.
In other news, my default icon is now useless and I have to change it to Onew & Jessica instead.
I'm going to Seoul tomorrow, and Chuncheon for the weekend, so no updates from me till much later. I'm going to Seoul AGAIN next week, to go to the Demilitarized Zone and Seoraksan. And fuck my life, my professor gave me 3 stacks of Derrida journals to read by next Tuesday. and I have TWO 7-page essays to write on Russian Literature and Siberian culture due next week. Also, I FAILED MY MIDTERMS.
Today's been a bad day. Byebye~
I know I sound really ridiculous right now. I mean, I'm 23 and idk him in real life he doesn't even know the existence of all of us but I'm still crying over the fact that he's actually found someone. She's his ideal girl. And he got her. Like. I'm like.
I DON'T KNOW. MY HEART IS BROKEN. I'm sorry for ranting here but I don't know why I'm like this. I should be mature enough to handle this, right? Apparently not? Here I am, mourning over the fact that he's with someone else. You know what... it was about this time last year when I found out that my real-life crush got together with someone. LOl. I just find it funny.
BUt I'm really upset about being upset if you get what I mean. It's not that I'm not happy for him - I can't bring myself to feel any joy in this occasion right now. I look at the pictures and you know what? I haven't seen him smile like that before.
And a lot of people on my t-list are like "GET OVER IT HE WASN'T YOURS ANYWAY" but I am upset and I need to rant to where do I go? I feel incredibly stupid for being like this, SERIOUSLY, but I can't stop myself? Omggggg I'm so pissed off with myself, honestly.
In other news, my default icon is now useless and I have to change it to Onew & Jessica instead.
I'm going to Seoul tomorrow, and Chuncheon for the weekend, so no updates from me till much later. I'm going to Seoul AGAIN next week, to go to the Demilitarized Zone and Seoraksan. And fuck my life, my professor gave me 3 stacks of Derrida journals to read by next Tuesday. and I have TWO 7-page essays to write on Russian Literature and Siberian culture due next week. Also, I FAILED MY MIDTERMS.
Today's been a bad day. Byebye~