Fic: "My Body Betrays Me," Chapter Five. Non-con Kurt/Karofsky, Kurt/Blaine -- COMPLETE!!!!!!
I can't believe it's over, you guys. I almost don't want to post this, so that the experience of sharing "Body" with you all will still be happening. But all things must come to an end.
I'm so, so happy to have shared this experience with each and every one of you. Thank you for being such incredible individuals and giving me such an amazing ( Read more... )
I'm so, so happy to have shared this experience with each and every one of you. Thank you for being such incredible individuals and giving me such an amazing ( Read more... )
I'm completely, 100% with you on Karofsky. I know that a lot of people were eager to see him "get punished" in a bigger way, but I just felt that this made so much more sense. (And oh, man, are you right about Karofsky taking Kurt's threat seriously right away. He fucking booked it and never stopped. He knew that it wasn't an empty threat right from the get-go, which was the only thing that stopped him from getting caught by the authorities.) And I think you're totally right in that, in some ways, this is a far worse punishment. Karofsky is going to be looking over his shoulder his entire life, never making real connections, never really being anyone, and feeling the guilt from what he did forever. I think there's something very powerful about that. (Also, I also wanted to highlight the unfortunate fact that people who do bad things don't always get caught. :( It sucks, but there it is.)
And oh, Blaine. :( In my own headcanon, his parents really do care. They love him, they do. They're not always around, and they're often quite busy, and Blaine and his dad especially have a hard time being on the same page a lot of the time. But they do love him: he's still their son, and they're horrified that this happened to their son again. (Blaine's mum, I feel, deals with emotions a bit better than Blaine's dad, who's awkward about it.) I'm so glad that you liked the 'shoving the glasses aside' image, as it was one that really stuck with me from a long time ago and I was eager to include. :)
And oh, yes, his breakdown. :( It was just inevitable, wasn't it? He's been shoving everything down for days, and shoving down how much pain he's in because he was excited for Kurt, and now all of the sudden all of the emotions are pain are front and centre. You're so right: he was just BATTERED. And oh, Blaine. <3 I love him so much. He always tries to do what's right, even if it isn't the correct choice, but in this case it really is. Blaine knows that Kurt needs time, and has been tearing himself up trying to not breakdown for him. Oh, Blaine.
Aha, glad you enjoyed the Kurt/Burt scene. :) I knew it was going to be difficult, because we're only seeing flashes of Kurt's family's reactions to everything. Plus, it's all through either his or Blaine's eyes: and both of the boys are pretty caught up in themselves/each other right now. They're not really paying all the attention they could to how other people are reacting: Kurt, in particular, just can't if he wants to keep himself sane. But, oh, Burt. You're so right, I think, that they must have just been furious at god/life/everything for making their son go through this. We have to remember the Burt's been going through grief for Kurt's condition for far, far longer than Kurt's really understood it. He must have been so, so happy. And I think that Kurt just had to hesitate; he finally had the choice to tell someone, and he needed to be able to have a moment where he hung on the edge. I'm glad he told his dad, though, in the end.
I knew that there wasn't going to be enough time to write an entire recovery!fic, because it just wasn't going to fit into the overall narrative of the story. (And it would turn into something as long as a fic like "Weightless" if I wanted to properly cover everything, and that fic is like 180,000 words long!!) So all we could get were little glimpses into Kurt-after-everything. Days continuing to pass, emotional confusion, the need for physical contact... and oh, Kurt, calling himself a whore. :( He was so in that mindset for so long, there are traces that just won't go away just yet.
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Blaine's caring parent: Thank god for them. I would have been completely shattered if Blaine had to go back to parents who didn't really care about him, or think he brought it upon himself for being gay or whatever. Poor poor darling didn't need anymore stress in his life and I am sooooo glad his mom is awesome, and his dad cares, but is unsure how to approach this. Major relief there. XD
(And lol, I read 'inevitable' in Megagirl's voice and burst out laughing for no reason XD Just watched starship again the other day XD XD XD) Blaine's breakdown... Major sob session there. But yes, It Gets Better.
Your reasoning for Kurt and Burt's reactions: PERFECT. Your characters are always so human and real, and you know them so very well (I mean, of course, you should, after all you are writing them, but half the time if I'm writing fan fic, I focus on the main character, and the others are sort of floating around without real gravity to hold them to sense. So I am in awe of your control and how you just articulate exactly what you think/KNOW the characters are up to and their own thoughta and motives and reasons.)
Length: Perfect. Moments: Perfect. Overall Absolutely Fucking PERFECT. Love this fic sooooooooo much, I'm gonna miss waiting holding my breath for updates, but I know there's gonna be more awesome things to come, so I'm just happy to along for the ride XD
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