and so what's new, Jude?
"Kurt is up in heaven now." cookie points to those who know where the reference is from.
anyways.
it's a little funny this time of the year -- it always is. maybe extra since this is the end of freshman year and hey! freshman year is supposed to be special. and it was, it was. it gave me goals, sort of, which is something that I've never had before, and it taught me all sorts of things about people, the good and the bad. given a second time 'round I could do better, I think, but it wouldn't be nearly as...well, interesting, let's say. it's true though, college makes you a better person. me, I'm less focused on petty things. wait, sorry, that's not true. I'm less fixated, I guess, not as obsessive-impulsive-reactive as I started off. I'm calmer.
I'm past falling in love with college, which is both good and bad, and past the falling out of love as well. college and I, we have a love hate relationship. but that's okay. I'd rather have a love hate relationship with a current love interest, but that's okay too. actually, I hate love hate relationships. they're stressful and exhausting, defeating the whole purpose of holding a stable relationship. why have a relationship when it only makes you more frustrated? why do anything that makes you more frustrated? because it's worth it.
wow. I'm really tired. I'll write more later. if I don't, it's because I'm watching Hotel Rwanda and I feel like that's a better cause.
anyways.
it's a little funny this time of the year -- it always is. maybe extra since this is the end of freshman year and hey! freshman year is supposed to be special. and it was, it was. it gave me goals, sort of, which is something that I've never had before, and it taught me all sorts of things about people, the good and the bad. given a second time 'round I could do better, I think, but it wouldn't be nearly as...well, interesting, let's say. it's true though, college makes you a better person. me, I'm less focused on petty things. wait, sorry, that's not true. I'm less fixated, I guess, not as obsessive-impulsive-reactive as I started off. I'm calmer.
I'm past falling in love with college, which is both good and bad, and past the falling out of love as well. college and I, we have a love hate relationship. but that's okay. I'd rather have a love hate relationship with a current love interest, but that's okay too. actually, I hate love hate relationships. they're stressful and exhausting, defeating the whole purpose of holding a stable relationship. why have a relationship when it only makes you more frustrated? why do anything that makes you more frustrated? because it's worth it.
wow. I'm really tired. I'll write more later. if I don't, it's because I'm watching Hotel Rwanda and I feel like that's a better cause.