Do I drive away into the sunset, or wait out the night?

[emerzs]

So I woke up this morning at five something. It was the first morning in a while that my mom hadn`t gotten me up to take out Katie, so far it is a pretty good day. Honestly though, being honest, it doesn`t matter how happy i am and how much I say it is going to be a good day.... I know it isn`t. I know for a fact it is not going to be a good day. Don`t get me wrong, I have my points that I am actually happy, but how can you be happy when you hate where you are? My mind and heart are back in Muscle Shoals, but my body is in Huntsville. You know I have tried to think of Huntsville as Muscle Shoals but it doesn`t seem to be working, obviously. What really bothers me is why I can`t let go of being in Muscle Shoals. It`s nothing, really there is nothing ever to come of someone if they stay there. Maybe I just left too soon. Maybe there is a time when you are ready to leave the place you`ve always loved, and maybe I just left way too soon. I have no idea. Seems like everyone would kill to get out of there that lives there and me being how difficult I am, want to go back there right now more than anything. You know what I want to go live on a beach. Where it never rains, it`s never stormy, bright blue oceans, slight breeze, and all the tea/pina coladas I could drink.... ooooo that sounds nice. :)

My resent problems that no one cares to hear me bitch about:
*Two- Nothing more will be said.
*Wanting to move back home.
*Wanting to spend alot of time with someone that I can`t
spend alot of time with right now.
*Needing my license, but trying to wait it out in case
I move back home.
*Thinking about how difficult it will be to leave Katie.
(the worst thing I could do.)

yeah yeah I know Emily wines alot, but this is my (journal) so if you don`t want to hear it don`t look at it.

:)