Possible explanation, yay!
I have been the crankiest bitch on wheels this past week-and-a-half. I couldn't figure out why, exactly, I just knew that I was getting really really irritated very quickly. Things that I can normally (now) handle calmly suddenly became stuff I would blow up at. I had a fight with Mom. I yelled at Sis. Not good.
Last night, I talked with Mom. I apologized for being so cranky and reactive. We talked about how I was feeling and how she felt about it. (And we did it calmly, rationally, and without any irritating behavior on either side, which is totally awesome.) Then she had an idea. I started using the Flonase about a week-and-a-half ago. Since it's a steroid, that might be the cause of my crazy, uncontrollable moods. Both Mom and Dad have bad reactions to steroids - Mom gets suicidally depressed (which she never is) and Dad gets MANIC/CRAZY. I end up with a little bit of both, which is exactly how I've been feeling: depressed and apathetic, while also jittery and unable to sleep.
I've decided to stop the Flonase for now. I'm hoping that's the cause. However, that means my headaches will most likely come back. I have thought about this and I'd rather have headaches again than not be completely in control of my emotions/moods. I feel out of control right now, and I really want that control back. I'm hoping that next week I can see a doctor and have them prescribe a different medication to help my nose, that won't affect my moods as much. I was given a Flovent inhaler (usually used for asthma) by my old allergist, and that worked pretty well. No nasty taste, and no running down my throat, since it's a super-fine spray. I'm going to see if I can convince the NP or PA I'll end up seeing to do that...
I'm going to relax now.... Maybe sit outside. Hopefully I can get a little while out there without dealing with those ridiculous dogs. I can't wait until we have money again so we can buy the Bark Off thing.
Last night, I talked with Mom. I apologized for being so cranky and reactive. We talked about how I was feeling and how she felt about it. (And we did it calmly, rationally, and without any irritating behavior on either side, which is totally awesome.) Then she had an idea. I started using the Flonase about a week-and-a-half ago. Since it's a steroid, that might be the cause of my crazy, uncontrollable moods. Both Mom and Dad have bad reactions to steroids - Mom gets suicidally depressed (which she never is) and Dad gets MANIC/CRAZY. I end up with a little bit of both, which is exactly how I've been feeling: depressed and apathetic, while also jittery and unable to sleep.
I've decided to stop the Flonase for now. I'm hoping that's the cause. However, that means my headaches will most likely come back. I have thought about this and I'd rather have headaches again than not be completely in control of my emotions/moods. I feel out of control right now, and I really want that control back. I'm hoping that next week I can see a doctor and have them prescribe a different medication to help my nose, that won't affect my moods as much. I was given a Flovent inhaler (usually used for asthma) by my old allergist, and that worked pretty well. No nasty taste, and no running down my throat, since it's a super-fine spray. I'm going to see if I can convince the NP or PA I'll end up seeing to do that...
I'm going to relax now.... Maybe sit outside. Hopefully I can get a little while out there without dealing with those ridiculous dogs. I can't wait until we have money again so we can buy the Bark Off thing.