thinking about something familiar

Aug 14, 2007 16:08

it's a result of a thousand tears and an effect of what i've put myself through just to keep you near.

well la di fucking da.
i'm through with trying that stupid shit and i'm sick of trying to make everyone else happy when i need to be my number one priority. no one else should be put in front of me but i always end up doing it and getting burnt in the end.

well fuck that. i won't settle for the backseat anymore.
it's time i think about me.
and i won't fall to my knees anymore when i feel like i've come to the end.

i'm going to lose my uncle in less than 3 months..
he has a liver condition obviously caused from not taking care of your body throughout your entire life.

he's leaving me. and the sad part is, the hope that i shed for him all the time never amounted to anything..

why you ask?
because you can't love someone if they don't love themselves..and if you truely feel like you'll make a difference and end up doing nothing..then don't blame yourself. it's not your fault and you know you did everything you could to make it work but it's fate and that's the way it goes.

no one will ever change to see you smile.
unless they live to smile for you.
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