i'm fucking sad.
i miss her so much, it hurts deep inside my stomach, goes through my legs and my arms, and my head is ALWAYS pounding.
the only picture running through my mind:
her with someone else, laughing, smiling,
falling in love with their eyes....
my skin crawls,
and i miss your hair in my face..
i miss you calling me a wacko.
i miss you kicking the shit out of me. :0)
i wish i could go back. i KNOW it's not possible, but i wish i could go back, and restep what i've mistaked..as a human, it's not possible to not make mistakes..
but i know i would've done whatever i could to fix it.
or have it not happen at all.
not words can explain how bad i feel when i eat a mountain.
i need to have her back, it's killing me.
and metaphorically speaking, it is ma'am.
the only picture running through my mind:
her with someone else, laughing, smiling,
falling in love with their eyes....
my skin crawls,
and i miss your hair in my face..
i miss you calling me a wacko.
i miss you kicking the shit out of me. :0)
i wish i could go back. i KNOW it's not possible, but i wish i could go back, and restep what i've mistaked..as a human, it's not possible to not make mistakes..
but i know i would've done whatever i could to fix it.
or have it not happen at all.
not words can explain how bad i feel when i eat a mountain.
i need to have her back, it's killing me.
and metaphorically speaking, it is ma'am.