oh Sam Swan
The only thing I can do to change this is to do nothing. Why am I so self-destructive lately?
May can't come soon enough.
People at home are just so petty, and all they do is seek attention and people are just so imature.
Everyone is so dramatic. All of it is rubbing off on me.
I can't feel bad cause I was dragged into the mess. I've been through shittier situations too, don't forget.
So it's not that I'm unhappy, because I can have a good time, but I'm just waiting for shit to change and get interesting, in a good way.
I need to put my walls up, and be on my guard. I need to focus on school. I need to pay attention to things that are important and to what's going to determine my future. I know I should "live in the now" but I'm just so consumed with what people think and do they like me and will they give me my jollies, lol
When am I going to be more like my sister and less like irresponsible, wreckless Adriana?
I'm so fuckin stupid sometimes.
Fuckin Paulo. I need to shut him up at the April camp, lol.
I don't expect this entry to make a lot of sense, and Eli, let's do starbucks cause I need an Eli talk.
May can't come soon enough.
People at home are just so petty, and all they do is seek attention and people are just so imature.
Everyone is so dramatic. All of it is rubbing off on me.
I can't feel bad cause I was dragged into the mess. I've been through shittier situations too, don't forget.
So it's not that I'm unhappy, because I can have a good time, but I'm just waiting for shit to change and get interesting, in a good way.
I need to put my walls up, and be on my guard. I need to focus on school. I need to pay attention to things that are important and to what's going to determine my future. I know I should "live in the now" but I'm just so consumed with what people think and do they like me and will they give me my jollies, lol
When am I going to be more like my sister and less like irresponsible, wreckless Adriana?
I'm so fuckin stupid sometimes.
Fuckin Paulo. I need to shut him up at the April camp, lol.
I don't expect this entry to make a lot of sense, and Eli, let's do starbucks cause I need an Eli talk.