9 more days....
I know, Its only 9 more days. Pull it together Em... I'm a basket case. Things I need to do, Will I have enough money? Will everything be okay? Is this what he really wants? Is this what I really want?
I'm sitting here. Drunk yet again, but typing really well.
Yeah... Its only 9 more days. But thats 9 days I can't hold him. 9 days I can't (pg-13 content only allowed) .... 9 more days I cant see him face to face. Some of you are going to think this is horribly pathetic. But I miss him so bad. I cry. A lot.
We fight sometimes because we miss each other so bad I think. And that doesn't help things.
I'm such a fucking screw up you know that? I really don't feel like I ever do ANYTHING right. I get a 99% on my final exam, and all I can see is that I got one wrong and there was that C I got a few tests ago. Not to mention that I screw up my relashonship all the time. Its a shame, cause I give everything I have. I put as much of myself as I can it to it. And I feel like its not enough. Notice I say "I" feel its not enough. No one has told me it isn't. Its just my own insecurities. Or perhaps, I really am just not enough, always have been not enough. Never will be. No matter how hard I try.
Em
I'm sitting here. Drunk yet again, but typing really well.
Yeah... Its only 9 more days. But thats 9 days I can't hold him. 9 days I can't (pg-13 content only allowed) .... 9 more days I cant see him face to face. Some of you are going to think this is horribly pathetic. But I miss him so bad. I cry. A lot.
We fight sometimes because we miss each other so bad I think. And that doesn't help things.
I'm such a fucking screw up you know that? I really don't feel like I ever do ANYTHING right. I get a 99% on my final exam, and all I can see is that I got one wrong and there was that C I got a few tests ago. Not to mention that I screw up my relashonship all the time. Its a shame, cause I give everything I have. I put as much of myself as I can it to it. And I feel like its not enough. Notice I say "I" feel its not enough. No one has told me it isn't. Its just my own insecurities. Or perhaps, I really am just not enough, always have been not enough. Never will be. No matter how hard I try.
Em