do i ever....
Well according to what my dr. said and what I think the baby is due somewhere between dec. 6 and dec. 21 but I swear he better be out by midnight on the 21st or I will take him out myself. He kicks like a ninja.
Due to recent events marriage is put on hold. I will not go into great detail over this decision but it has a little to do with timing and a lot to do with how I feel about me. As far as timing goes I do not want to rush it just because we have something in common with the same human being. As far as I feel about me, I am still not in the right frame of mind I still wake up watching him sleep and think to myself there is no way he feels the same about me as I do him, and I don't want to end up feeling that "Now I got him, he can't get away now." I want to feel confident in the fact that we are on even ground. That he wants to be with me as much as I want to be with him. Tim knows this but I think that he belives I am joking. Might have something to do with the fact that though I don't feel like marriage at this time I am still absolutely crazy about him. I just always saw marriage as a dividing line between my parents, like if they never got married my parents might actually care for one another. My mom saw it as a trap and my father in a way saw it that way too. I believe that I should be 100 and 10 percent sure it is what I want to do before I do it.
Anyway on a lighter note. Tim is going with me to see Twilight when it comes out, and I think that is pretty cool of him considering I insisted that he let me read it to him before we watch it. I would just let him read it but if I handed it to him and said "here read this" it would never get done. I knocked out two chapters last night and he still seems interested so I am very hopefull.
Now that I am out of school I am trying very hard to keep the place tidy.... that is not working out so well. Even with two jobs, brewing, and studying so he can get into ASU he still has more energy than me who only works 40hrs about 36 of these are spent on my ass. . . I don't remember being this tired.
Sooooo.... thats all for now I am off to obsesively go through the series for a 3rd time... I just don't know why I can't put it down, I need a hobby, or just to get out of the house.
Due to recent events marriage is put on hold. I will not go into great detail over this decision but it has a little to do with timing and a lot to do with how I feel about me. As far as timing goes I do not want to rush it just because we have something in common with the same human being. As far as I feel about me, I am still not in the right frame of mind I still wake up watching him sleep and think to myself there is no way he feels the same about me as I do him, and I don't want to end up feeling that "Now I got him, he can't get away now." I want to feel confident in the fact that we are on even ground. That he wants to be with me as much as I want to be with him. Tim knows this but I think that he belives I am joking. Might have something to do with the fact that though I don't feel like marriage at this time I am still absolutely crazy about him. I just always saw marriage as a dividing line between my parents, like if they never got married my parents might actually care for one another. My mom saw it as a trap and my father in a way saw it that way too. I believe that I should be 100 and 10 percent sure it is what I want to do before I do it.
Anyway on a lighter note. Tim is going with me to see Twilight when it comes out, and I think that is pretty cool of him considering I insisted that he let me read it to him before we watch it. I would just let him read it but if I handed it to him and said "here read this" it would never get done. I knocked out two chapters last night and he still seems interested so I am very hopefull.
Now that I am out of school I am trying very hard to keep the place tidy.... that is not working out so well. Even with two jobs, brewing, and studying so he can get into ASU he still has more energy than me who only works 40hrs about 36 of these are spent on my ass. . . I don't remember being this tired.
Sooooo.... thats all for now I am off to obsesively go through the series for a 3rd time... I just don't know why I can't put it down, I need a hobby, or just to get out of the house.