definition, please
Sometimes, I wonder what normal feels like.
I'm in a great mood today. I feel like I'm going to do ALL THE THINGS - not cure cancer or anything like that, but make a big dent in my to-do list, actually accomplish things at work rather than drifting from one task to the next. Bring it on, pseudo-Monday. (I was off yesterday, so today is my Monday.) If I were home, I'd be decluttering. Or still sleeping, because I can sleep for-freaking-ever. But hopefully decluttering.
I feel great. Kinda like Tigger, except I can rein it in. I'm doing forty things at once, but I always do that.
I know when I get home tonight, after Caleb is in bed, I'll crash. I do that every.single.night. Getting stuff done after he's down just doesn't happen. Most of the time, I don't even give a rip about dinner because it sounds like too much effort. It's not depression, just worn out. I can tell the difference.
But I don't know the difference between hypomania and normal. I think I was normal, maybe back in high school, but I don't remember it. My "normal" is kind of half-speed. Happy, crazy in love with my kid, but feeling overwhelmed by all the THINGS that have to be done. Not much internal motivation. I've always sucked at that.
I know it doesn't really matter what this is. Normal, hypo, somewhere in between. If it works for me, it works, and I'll just enjoy it while it lasts.
I'm just curious.
I'm in a great mood today. I feel like I'm going to do ALL THE THINGS - not cure cancer or anything like that, but make a big dent in my to-do list, actually accomplish things at work rather than drifting from one task to the next. Bring it on, pseudo-Monday. (I was off yesterday, so today is my Monday.) If I were home, I'd be decluttering. Or still sleeping, because I can sleep for-freaking-ever. But hopefully decluttering.
I feel great. Kinda like Tigger, except I can rein it in. I'm doing forty things at once, but I always do that.
I know when I get home tonight, after Caleb is in bed, I'll crash. I do that every.single.night. Getting stuff done after he's down just doesn't happen. Most of the time, I don't even give a rip about dinner because it sounds like too much effort. It's not depression, just worn out. I can tell the difference.
But I don't know the difference between hypomania and normal. I think I was normal, maybe back in high school, but I don't remember it. My "normal" is kind of half-speed. Happy, crazy in love with my kid, but feeling overwhelmed by all the THINGS that have to be done. Not much internal motivation. I've always sucked at that.
I know it doesn't really matter what this is. Normal, hypo, somewhere in between. If it works for me, it works, and I'll just enjoy it while it lasts.
I'm just curious.