Balance.

[emeraldsama]

When it comes down to it I'm so flawed and selfish it's not even funny. I'm working on it, but it's a slow process. You can't think of other people and where they're going in reference to yourself, and how it affects you, is close to what I'm thinking. To be happy with yourself you need to treat other people...something. I can't think of the word or exact concept I have in mind. One needs to say less "I" though. But if helping others is really helping yourself, and if you're not helping them for them but for you then it's all wrong! And it's such a fine line as to the motives for one's actions.

I'm afraid to get close to people. It's like senior year again. I see everyone getting ready to pack up and leave, and moving faster than me. I know most people you meet aren't meant to stay in your life forever, but I'm having trouble letting go right now(for fear of being alone?). Good times with the same people don't last forever. Where are the new people though? I don't want to be like that. Help everyone as best you can, and send them on their way. That's what I'll do. I can't word what I'm thinking, it's driving me nuts.

Car, school, travel. Money money money people money people money money.

Insercurity. I'm taking things too personally and seriously.

You're not the person for me. This isn't the place for me.

Pay it forward.