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Right. For some reason the James Frey (a million little pieces) is acting as an aid to calm me down. It might also be the sun and lounging around on Primrose Hill with Joel, and having access to loads of food and fruit at home. I should have left last night but we stayed out in camden til eleven and I decided not to make a break for Victoria.
I have no money but I feel like I'm gradually coming back down to normality. Today, whilst sitting on the sofa and doing nothing in particular apart from reading the newspaper, I felt a sudden jolt of euphora, shuddering and tear-inducing and completely unfounded. It was wonderful but bizarre. Since then, I've calmed down but reassured that I am still capable of euphoria- something dampened by stress etc of late. Tinu is back tomorrow and actually, I don't want to see her, yet. I want to get on with what I was doing and I'm not ready yet. I'm getting a later train back tonight and going to sleep long, and well.
I have no money but I feel like I'm gradually coming back down to normality. Today, whilst sitting on the sofa and doing nothing in particular apart from reading the newspaper, I felt a sudden jolt of euphora, shuddering and tear-inducing and completely unfounded. It was wonderful but bizarre. Since then, I've calmed down but reassured that I am still capable of euphoria- something dampened by stress etc of late. Tinu is back tomorrow and actually, I don't want to see her, yet. I want to get on with what I was doing and I'm not ready yet. I'm getting a later train back tonight and going to sleep long, and well.