The Lonely Road
So I was looking around on facebook, well basically killing time and I find that someone I consider a best friend is getting married. We haven't really talked much in the last couple of years and this time last year he had moved out of the state, so yeah, we haven't talked that much, but, like real friends, you can just talk and catch up like it was nothing.
Anyways, the point wasn't that I'm jealous of him getting married, that's great for him and I'm happy, but the fact he has someone now. And let me clarify.
Let me use my friend rockmunkee as the perfect example. When she lived in Georgia it was great, I had found this new friend who I could be like, "Hey let's go see such and such movie" and we'd go and it'd be great. Or she'd call me and go, "There's this show I want to go to, want to come?" and I'd go and that would be that. We have similar interests and different interests, but it didn't get in the way, we were both willing to try out something different.
Cut to today, I don't have anyone like that anymore. Now if I want to see a movie, it's never the right time, or no one wants to go see that particular movie. Which stinks now, because I'll just get up and go, good in some respects in that I don't have to wait for anyone, bad in that I don't have anyone to really talk about it with.
And I'll use another friend as an example. He's always trying to get me to play trivia, he plays multiple times a week. I used to go once a week, mainly because a bunch of friends would go and it would be our one chance to hang and relax. Now, its him and bunch of other people who I'm not really friends with playing 4 times a week. And it's just about all he talks about. So randomly he'll ask what's going on, and I would say something, then it's back to him talking about trivia and what happened the night before. Sometimes it feels like he's my friend becuase he's trying to get me to come play trivia again. When it comes to me wanting to do something, he never does, but always about me coming to play trivia. Kinda get old you know?
But yeah, that's what life is like. There are people around who I can talk to and whatnot, but they have their own lives going on, and I don't gruge them for it. I'm just venting.
I seem to have this face that people seem to feel comfortable talking to me about things, which is fine, I don't mind listening to people talk about their stuff, but every now and then, what about me?? I like what I like, every now and then I'd like to be able to talk about what I feel and what I think. Is that too much to ask for?
Anyways, the point wasn't that I'm jealous of him getting married, that's great for him and I'm happy, but the fact he has someone now. And let me clarify.
Let me use my friend rockmunkee as the perfect example. When she lived in Georgia it was great, I had found this new friend who I could be like, "Hey let's go see such and such movie" and we'd go and it'd be great. Or she'd call me and go, "There's this show I want to go to, want to come?" and I'd go and that would be that. We have similar interests and different interests, but it didn't get in the way, we were both willing to try out something different.
Cut to today, I don't have anyone like that anymore. Now if I want to see a movie, it's never the right time, or no one wants to go see that particular movie. Which stinks now, because I'll just get up and go, good in some respects in that I don't have to wait for anyone, bad in that I don't have anyone to really talk about it with.
And I'll use another friend as an example. He's always trying to get me to play trivia, he plays multiple times a week. I used to go once a week, mainly because a bunch of friends would go and it would be our one chance to hang and relax. Now, its him and bunch of other people who I'm not really friends with playing 4 times a week. And it's just about all he talks about. So randomly he'll ask what's going on, and I would say something, then it's back to him talking about trivia and what happened the night before. Sometimes it feels like he's my friend becuase he's trying to get me to come play trivia again. When it comes to me wanting to do something, he never does, but always about me coming to play trivia. Kinda get old you know?
But yeah, that's what life is like. There are people around who I can talk to and whatnot, but they have their own lives going on, and I don't gruge them for it. I'm just venting.
I seem to have this face that people seem to feel comfortable talking to me about things, which is fine, I don't mind listening to people talk about their stuff, but every now and then, what about me?? I like what I like, every now and then I'd like to be able to talk about what I feel and what I think. Is that too much to ask for?