Um, love?
I have not as many friends as I have on facebook or Myspace [Oh how surprisingly...sarcasm] Big surprise as I have on here. Because on here: I am real. I use this as the easy-access diary that is much harder to get at myt parents' house under garments and such. Ya know. The usual hiding spots.
I have to give kudos to Rihanna's new song...Take a bow, is it called? Because it is everything I have every wanted to say, and yet so beautiful, poetic and very catchy-surprisingly.
I have been working out so much. Not for the whole "bo dy image issue" but because I have stress from not getting a job and from going to bed so late and I try to go to bed "early : aka one or two maybe three" AND I end up going to bed at four or five. When John spends the night, he goes to sleep around midnight or one. And I am up for another movie, or a swim in the pool. So, in all honesty, I do not see this as a relationship going much further. Unless he is just waiting to say, "I love you" after he moves to Ann Arbor and I am still with him. But I don't tell him when I am going to a party. And I don't tell him much else. Except for my past. Because...past is easy to let certain people in on. Especially John. I know that he will know me a bot better after knowing a certain something. Which also works in bed. Fooly Cooly.
In other words: I am highly content. I have someone on the other side of the world [ not literally] "waiting" for me. I've had hard core feelings for him for so long. But I have also had stronger feelings in a shorter amount of time for John...
and...big surprise..I am drunk.
Lave to everyone who reads whole entries... because I love everyone on myh friends list
I have to give kudos to Rihanna's new song...Take a bow, is it called? Because it is everything I have every wanted to say, and yet so beautiful, poetic and very catchy-surprisingly.
I have been working out so much. Not for the whole "bo dy image issue" but because I have stress from not getting a job and from going to bed so late and I try to go to bed "early : aka one or two maybe three" AND I end up going to bed at four or five. When John spends the night, he goes to sleep around midnight or one. And I am up for another movie, or a swim in the pool. So, in all honesty, I do not see this as a relationship going much further. Unless he is just waiting to say, "I love you" after he moves to Ann Arbor and I am still with him. But I don't tell him when I am going to a party. And I don't tell him much else. Except for my past. Because...past is easy to let certain people in on. Especially John. I know that he will know me a bot better after knowing a certain something. Which also works in bed. Fooly Cooly.
In other words: I am highly content. I have someone on the other side of the world [ not literally] "waiting" for me. I've had hard core feelings for him for so long. But I have also had stronger feelings in a shorter amount of time for John...
and...big surprise..I am drunk.
Lave to everyone who reads whole entries... because I love everyone on myh friends list