Life....blah blah blah
Cut last sunday cause I needed to. I'm a dick-I'm addicted to it. Heh anyways, then last night I found out that Kelcey cuts-lol the wrong way. She does it for the pain...I do it for the pleasure. Heh. She does it across on like, her actual arm, and legs. I do it on my wrist and down, but also across. It's the thrill of almost dying! Knowing you're in control! I feel like writing a song. Also-omg so much drama last night. um...basically Skinny ass Jazmine hates me because I "dated" Eugene last year and she still has a crush on him and as she told the other Jazmine, "she thinks she's sucha good dancer, but she's just like all over the place!" So yeah...I turned around and went back inside and did a bunch of pirouettes. Maybe if she ate something she could get a little happiness in her life. I don't hate her, I'm just sick of people looking for a reason to hate me. Sophomores need to know their place. Haven't smoked (weed) in like...forever, basically ever since Tim told me to stop. I really really really want to though, I've been craving it! But....THIS TOO SHALL FUCKING PASS. Lol. Still been about four months (i stopped counting) since my last cigarette. Let's see last time I drank...-sigh- twas a bad night. It was the night that Anna was in that accident and poster day was the next day, so I cried when I got there, and so did Sammy. We hung posters, got that over with (Justin, Jon, Xavier and Amy <3 was in my group. Thank god for amy) Amy and I were reminicing about Anna and I said that she let me french braid her hair one time and I had an orgasm. The justing said, "Yeah, uh dad's in the car". His dad was just silent. But lmao! When we were at big lots I stole two thongs and some eyeshadow. Twas a good day. Then we had to stop at walgreens because my period started and when we got out of the car his dad said "be quick" Amy and I just looked at eachother like "WTF!!!" After that, we hung out at Elissa's, then got some food at Sam's, then saw Anna where there was definatly more tears. It sucks that we can't see her. I just want her out of the state she's in now >.< At this very moment...I wonder if she knows what's going on. It's anna...she uses her brain so much and is always conscious of everything...and then to purposely make her unconscious? And make her bald...omg I want to cry again. But anyways, that night I looked in the Excelsior and there is her picture on page....eight or so holding a grant (check) for feeding starving kids. I just shouted, "there's no way in hell she's going to die, there's a reason she's on Earth!!" Yes, had a religous moment but keep it on the DL.
Sarah
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