The Truth to one person.
Nothing will ever go back to the way it once was.
looking back is never easy
I don't think it is healthy either
I will never be a happy, angry,rebellious teenage girl
who smoked cigarettes
witch is something I am proud of but still,
I will never live in Florida again,or Tennessee, Nevada
I Will never be as close with some of those people who I was once inseparable with.
they will go one way and I another.
I will never be able to go into melanies room if im scared-or vis versa
I Will never see the house on Kettering street.
I dont get to have deep talks with MiMi, Christina is married.
I will never hug my dad again, have the safety net of that relationship
I will always miss him more then I can explain to anyone,including myself.
come to think I have managed to- by choice leave behind every safety net I once used as a backbone.
I Have grown used to things that are hard
conditioned
I have grown up so much, so fast
sometimes i look in the mirror and think to myself
that I am the same little girl who needed something, someone to help
I kinda feel like i never found that in anyone or anything
and I am very grateful for that because I found it in me.
I am sometimes amazed at the fact that I now laugh with every single vessel in my body.
I am complete in many ways, not all of them.
I dance in the dark
its the little things.
I Still live in that world of my own
that I created in my head at about the age of four.
The world in my head that holds no competition
I Hate competition.
try, cry, laugh, sing
let people hurt you if they most,in the end they will hurt and you will learn.
keep yourself away from anything and everything that feels wrong to you
trust your heart, and your mind,
if there is something you dont like about yourself then change it.
never change a single thing about you for anyone but yourself.
these are not demands.. just things i have learned and use in my own life.
I am so fortunate to have met all the people I have along my way
I wish there was a way for me to show you all how unique and absolutely perfect I think many of you are.
relizations are both scary, and important.
I wish we would all not call eachother names, we are all human.
We are all hypocrites, ignorant, shallow, in some way or another..
and who are we to call someone else something so harsh so quickly?
Listen to what the people you love say and feel.
try your best to not judge anybody else
what is with everyone trying to figure everyone out?
my goal is to understand myself and understand that everyone else is not me and that is all that i need to know.
we are all just the same and just as different
My mom has never been to the STL and i get to hug her in the morning !:) !:)
big ups to my Brothers for being amazing.
Tonight I saw Carey Kirk.. I always forget how she glows,and how much I admire her
my heart is focused on my Sisters dilemma and Betsie grandma tonight.
It hurts that i cant help either of those things, I think I worry for other people to much, i wish there was a way to change that.
I am vedddddy sleepy
he is so sweet to me
my middle name is unlucky.. but I am a very fortunate person.
Wow I wrote alot
I leave you with a goodnight kiss on the face.
looking back is never easy
I don't think it is healthy either
I will never be a happy, angry,rebellious teenage girl
who smoked cigarettes
witch is something I am proud of but still,
I will never live in Florida again,or Tennessee, Nevada
I Will never be as close with some of those people who I was once inseparable with.
they will go one way and I another.
I will never be able to go into melanies room if im scared-or vis versa
I Will never see the house on Kettering street.
I dont get to have deep talks with MiMi, Christina is married.
I will never hug my dad again, have the safety net of that relationship
I will always miss him more then I can explain to anyone,including myself.
come to think I have managed to- by choice leave behind every safety net I once used as a backbone.
I Have grown used to things that are hard
conditioned
I have grown up so much, so fast
sometimes i look in the mirror and think to myself
that I am the same little girl who needed something, someone to help
I kinda feel like i never found that in anyone or anything
and I am very grateful for that because I found it in me.
I am sometimes amazed at the fact that I now laugh with every single vessel in my body.
I am complete in many ways, not all of them.
I dance in the dark
its the little things.
I Still live in that world of my own
that I created in my head at about the age of four.
The world in my head that holds no competition
I Hate competition.
try, cry, laugh, sing
let people hurt you if they most,in the end they will hurt and you will learn.
keep yourself away from anything and everything that feels wrong to you
trust your heart, and your mind,
if there is something you dont like about yourself then change it.
never change a single thing about you for anyone but yourself.
these are not demands.. just things i have learned and use in my own life.
I am so fortunate to have met all the people I have along my way
I wish there was a way for me to show you all how unique and absolutely perfect I think many of you are.
relizations are both scary, and important.
I wish we would all not call eachother names, we are all human.
We are all hypocrites, ignorant, shallow, in some way or another..
and who are we to call someone else something so harsh so quickly?
Listen to what the people you love say and feel.
try your best to not judge anybody else
what is with everyone trying to figure everyone out?
my goal is to understand myself and understand that everyone else is not me and that is all that i need to know.
we are all just the same and just as different
My mom has never been to the STL and i get to hug her in the morning !:) !:)
big ups to my Brothers for being amazing.
Tonight I saw Carey Kirk.. I always forget how she glows,and how much I admire her
my heart is focused on my Sisters dilemma and Betsie grandma tonight.
It hurts that i cant help either of those things, I think I worry for other people to much, i wish there was a way to change that.
I am vedddddy sleepy
he is so sweet to me
my middle name is unlucky.. but I am a very fortunate person.
Wow I wrote alot
I leave you with a goodnight kiss on the face.