How Things Go
So I had been seeing someone this summer. It ended very badly...and my birthday weekend no less. I am losing hope that there is anyone out there who loves like I do...and will love ME like that. I put to much of myself into my relationships...and I do it too soon. So when they end it breaks me all over again. It makes me not able to trust in a relationship...
I'm tired of things. I think more it has to do with the fact that I hate having nothing to do and no one around. I hate sitting at home doing nothing. Being with someone gives me something to do because I can go hang out with them. I am a very boring person who doesn't come up with things to do on my own. Yet I always want to be doing things. I want to be social and DO things. I want to hang out with friends...I want to work on a show...I want to be active around me. Sitting at home doing nothing just doesn't work for me. I need work...I need a social life.
I'm tired of things. I think more it has to do with the fact that I hate having nothing to do and no one around. I hate sitting at home doing nothing. Being with someone gives me something to do because I can go hang out with them. I am a very boring person who doesn't come up with things to do on my own. Yet I always want to be doing things. I want to be social and DO things. I want to hang out with friends...I want to work on a show...I want to be active around me. Sitting at home doing nothing just doesn't work for me. I need work...I need a social life.