*looks at her clock*
Well...It's about 5am...according to the clock down in the corner here. It is actually 5:11 to be exact...strike that...5:12 now. I am still wide awake...Yes, it is true that my AIM says I am in bed sleeping, but it lies. Well, maybe it doesn't so much lie as it gives a fictional account of what "sleeping" entails. Typically when my AIM says I am "sleeping" it means I am "laying in bed wondering why I am not at all tired and wishing I could actually get some sleep so that my sleep cycle isn't that of scary things (such as would be lurking in dark corners and so forth)" THOUGH if it is noon and my AIM says that then it is telling the truth...In most cases.
I've tried to reset my sleep cycle about 2 times now...neither of these times have worked. HOWEVER, I am going to be staying up all night and day tomorrow (or rather today) to give it another shot. Third time's the charm, right? So if I end up talking to you at some point and seem...irritable(?) do not take it personally it is my major lack of sleep that is the culprit...and not you *nods*
As for how I am doing...Well, not so good.
Am really bored because I honestly have been sitting on my lazy ass every day doing...nothing. I even considered working out tonight! You know it's desperate times when >I< actually WANT to work out. I have not been gaining weight, though...want to know why? It's because it takes effort to get off my ass and get food when it is somehow SO much more appealing to sit and do nothing while my stomach tries to eat itself front the inside. I neeeeeeeed to do something...All night I've been watching videos of musicals on youtube and it made me really sad because I miss it. Sure I haven't been away from it very long...just the summer...but I miss it and want to go perform somewhere...ANYWHERE! *sighs*
I feel so, completely useless and non-productive right now...At this point I am a waste of space in stagnant water. I need to be rescued for this nothing I have dragged myself into.
At least one good thing comes of this...I can talk to my dear friend Bagheera all day while he's at work...Thank God for that. It's the only thing keeping me from spiraling in to a pit of depression *sighs again*
Maybe I just should have done the damn musical...
Even if it was a lame part that I've played before and would make me feel like I haven't progressed at ALL since the summer of 2001. At least then I would have been busy...though probably just as depressed.
Well...now it's 5:33...woo *walks off*
I've tried to reset my sleep cycle about 2 times now...neither of these times have worked. HOWEVER, I am going to be staying up all night and day tomorrow (or rather today) to give it another shot. Third time's the charm, right? So if I end up talking to you at some point and seem...irritable(?) do not take it personally it is my major lack of sleep that is the culprit...and not you *nods*
As for how I am doing...Well, not so good.
Am really bored because I honestly have been sitting on my lazy ass every day doing...nothing. I even considered working out tonight! You know it's desperate times when >I< actually WANT to work out. I have not been gaining weight, though...want to know why? It's because it takes effort to get off my ass and get food when it is somehow SO much more appealing to sit and do nothing while my stomach tries to eat itself front the inside. I neeeeeeeed to do something...All night I've been watching videos of musicals on youtube and it made me really sad because I miss it. Sure I haven't been away from it very long...just the summer...but I miss it and want to go perform somewhere...ANYWHERE! *sighs*
I feel so, completely useless and non-productive right now...At this point I am a waste of space in stagnant water. I need to be rescued for this nothing I have dragged myself into.
At least one good thing comes of this...I can talk to my dear friend Bagheera all day while he's at work...Thank God for that. It's the only thing keeping me from spiraling in to a pit of depression *sighs again*
Maybe I just should have done the damn musical...
Even if it was a lame part that I've played before and would make me feel like I haven't progressed at ALL since the summer of 2001. At least then I would have been busy...though probably just as depressed.
Well...now it's 5:33...woo *walks off*