This is what happens.
So, I am once again up at 1:36am and not feeling at all tired. Why? Because my sleep cycle has been thrown off completely...Though, to be honest, it was never really normal to begin with. I am lucky enough to have a few friends that have happened to have a similar disorder thrust upon them due to the ever elusive thing that this world calls "work". This, however is a limited amount of people and do TO this "work" thing they sometimes can't talk.
Speaking of WORK...
I'm looking for a job...and it sucks...because I am a total noob at it AND a chicken at that when it comes to applying for things. Even more so a chicken when it comes to following up on those applications. *sighs*
I think my hesitation is the result of my borderline INFP/ENFP personality.
I find it sooooooooo hard to do things that don't interest me. None of the jobs I applied for really held any solid interest for me...I know, I know...People will just roll their eyes and be like, "Just suck it up and get over it. We all have to work jobs we don't like from time to time."
How sad is that, though?
In all honesty!
How many people spend there life in one job after the other that they don't enjoy just to pay the bills? How many people get locked into such a life of compromise when it comes to their true passion? I can't do that to myself...I FEAR doing that to myself. I know a lot of people probably think I'm silly for thinking everyone should only do for a living what they love. I know a lot of people would consider me naive for my ideas, but I think people should always follow their dreams...A life without dreams or a life that's given up on it's dreams breaks my heart! When that glitter of hope leaves a person's eyes and is replaced with a dull glaze of lost desires...When someone can look at the stars and see nothing more then white dots...When the sun can rise and set over a drifting savannah without being admired anymore. That adds another crack to my heart.
I shouldn't stay up late...I think too much when I have nothing to do and nobody to talk to.
Not that I have nobody to talk to most nights, just tonight *smiles*
Goodnight world, it's 2:10 now...That wasted a little over a half hour.
Maybe I'll get tired soon.
Speaking of WORK...
I'm looking for a job...and it sucks...because I am a total noob at it AND a chicken at that when it comes to applying for things. Even more so a chicken when it comes to following up on those applications. *sighs*
I think my hesitation is the result of my borderline INFP/ENFP personality.
I find it sooooooooo hard to do things that don't interest me. None of the jobs I applied for really held any solid interest for me...I know, I know...People will just roll their eyes and be like, "Just suck it up and get over it. We all have to work jobs we don't like from time to time."
How sad is that, though?
In all honesty!
How many people spend there life in one job after the other that they don't enjoy just to pay the bills? How many people get locked into such a life of compromise when it comes to their true passion? I can't do that to myself...I FEAR doing that to myself. I know a lot of people probably think I'm silly for thinking everyone should only do for a living what they love. I know a lot of people would consider me naive for my ideas, but I think people should always follow their dreams...A life without dreams or a life that's given up on it's dreams breaks my heart! When that glitter of hope leaves a person's eyes and is replaced with a dull glaze of lost desires...When someone can look at the stars and see nothing more then white dots...When the sun can rise and set over a drifting savannah without being admired anymore. That adds another crack to my heart.
I shouldn't stay up late...I think too much when I have nothing to do and nobody to talk to.
Not that I have nobody to talk to most nights, just tonight *smiles*
Goodnight world, it's 2:10 now...That wasted a little over a half hour.
Maybe I'll get tired soon.