Continued from a post somewhere down there V
...I get hurt easily though it is normally self inflicted, I always imagin the worst of any given situation so I'm never shocked when something unpleasent happens, I love to sing and it actually really really really pisses me off when people tell me or anyone to shut up...even if it's meant well, I don't like people watching me draw because I don't like people to see my unfinished work, same goes for my cooking, I really don't think I'm all that cultured, though some say I am...I still don't think I am because there are SO MANY MORE things out there then what I've seen, heard, and done...and I want to see, hear, and do it all, I've always felt that I have to be perfect because I was the measuring tape my parents held my brother to...I hated that more then anything, I love my brother because he is actually a really great person...sometimes he doesn't think before he speaks and he isn't "the perfect child" that my parents seem to expect from us, but he's a good guy...I wish my parents could see the good instead of the bad, I was in a relationship in the past that was abusive in every way so I'm kind of screwed up as far as trusting people goes, nobody up untill this last year even knew about that relationship, I have thought about what it would be like if I suddenly died...It broke my heart because I knew it would break other people's hearts because people care more then I think...I think, I haven't had a lot of tragedy in my life, but I have had a lot of loneliness, one of my earliest memories is sitting alone on the playground watching all the kids playing and being happy and wondering why I couldn't feel like that, I cherish every single happy moment, I dwell on every bad moment, I like to dance, but I'm not very good at it, it breaks my heart to know others are hurting...
Yeah, that's all for now...
Yeah, that's all for now...